as i was listening to this song on my way home 2night, i cried... all that was in my mind was mr D....
song: 没有你的每一天
artisit: 徐婕儿
lyrics:
回家的路总是很远
话少得很可怜
一个人的晚餐
都是孤单的滋味
看见身边重复上演
属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼
怎么还是会流泪
爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉
我舍不得睁开眼睛
害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里
是我们最近的距离
想念你温热的手心
冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临
这温度该怎么延续
爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉
谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺
未来的路该怎么走
爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉
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我真的，很想念，很想念，很想念你。哪怕只是能再见到你一眼，我也会很高兴，很快乐。怎么办，我真的无法忘记你。我已经把你深深的刻在我的内心的最深处了。曾经那么爱你，但不敢说出口。如今失去了你，我有后悔，也很难过。放下，我做不到。我有尝试过，我以为我做到了，但今晚，我发现，我的心里，还是你。怎么办？好痛苦！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！
no idea what happened... u keep crying and yet u refuse 2 say y.... don't u know that seeing u like this i am hurt to? i am in pain too? y is it that i am always worried about u... u should know what to do! haven't u learnt enough? i'm suffocating!!!! sometimes, i really juz wanna run away from here and just get it done... but i noe, this cannot be carried out.. we are all link, in 1 way or another... u cry tears, while my heart bleeds... but do u noe? u ignore....
the feeling of freedom i thought i want did not come. instead, i'm feeling even more alone and more lonely... i really feel like i could break down... why is this so? :( :( :(
heart has been acting up very badly these few weeks... its difficult 2 sleep at night... sometimes, by bed time, i secretly hope that my heart could stop and let me go... sometimes... cos its really a struggle to fight against the pain, to fight against the disability to breath properly, to fight against the irregular heartbeat, to fight against the huge impact as if the heart wants to jump out from the chest, the pain caused by so many many of these strange heartbeats... these few night have been a very extremely bad struggle despite medication.. what should i do next.. fear is the only word to describe how i'm feeling now... fear... i have no courage to see doctor, no courage to go for an operation, no courage...
no courage...
no courage...
wow.. time flies.... less than a month to school again -_- updates?
i had a 'good time' taking up the 8 precepts for 7 days, out of which, 2 days clashed wit h the friday chantings and thus, i cannot chat with people for once... well, have to thank sister annie and chun yi shifu for giving me the chance to take up these precepts. its was a different experience, 1st being that there is only the 2 of us taking up this precept and thus, its very different from those who took up the precepts under organized situations... thru these 7days, i learnt a lot of myself, understanding myself, and also to improve myself...
te yuan shifu was off to myanmmar with chun hui shifu and chun zhi shifu... went to the temple on most days while they were gone, 1st to take the 8 precepts, 2nd to help out. when chun hui shifu and chun zhi shifu came back, chun nian shifu and chun qing shifu went off to meet her for a retreat... chun yi shifu left on the 8th for a retreat too.. her little mickey boy thus started to follow me ard the temple... muahahaha!!! went everyday from the 8th till 13th to help out.. really not enough ppl le.. plus i could do the bell drum!!! yahoo! haha! well, had a good time there la ^_^
meeting shan later to go walk walk... then meething her and aeng and nee this sat to go out too... then 29th going USS, 30th going zooo... yesa!!!
fri till monday family away for hols,, i'll thus report to temple almost daily again :D
