haiz... every1 sleeping 2day... sianz la... later going out... maybe ba... should be ba... i think so la... juz tat the number of ppl going not confirm nia... haha... since all sleeping... haiz....

yesterday tok on the phone till 2am... again... i these days all on the phone de... haha... but its ok la... since i dun wanna sleep so early de... haha... hmm... last night the phone conversation a bit the odd... cos like the 1 and only handphone was being passed around... and i had a time guessing hu was on the other line... plus the given very de noisy background... haha.... so sian... i at home... with like the majority of i-guides off at camp hor... my msn like become very de quiet le... haha... but still got ppl 2 tok 2 la... haiz... so i everyday at home like watching VCD on my computer, playing games, sleep... haha... but i eveyday din eat lunch... cos i dun wanna cook... or else later haf 2 clean up the mess i will make... in other words... lazy la... haha... so dun eat lor... mum oso din put money in the purse... so no money 2 eat lorz... juz now tok on the phone with wei ting... later will tok 2 her again... haha... and i think got some1 else gonna call oso... muz see how 1st thou... haha... hmm... nothing much these days... cos everyday i at home larz... yesterday my group came over 2 do project... but we ended up a bit the dancing away la... haha... we were oso laughing like dunno wat like tat... thou my brother was at home... but hu cares la... then we did managed 2 split up the work... every1 do the same things... then i will collate and print out lorz... we sort of like finished the discussion in 5 mins la... then me, hui nee, shanlyn and jia wen went 2 the playground 2 play... hehe... played on the swings and see-saw... a bit the like deprived child-hood de ppl... haha... then we come back 2 watch TV... but a bit the nothing on la... sianz... they left at 6 and my mum reached home at 6.15... heng arh... haha...
sian la... nothing 2 do le... quite looking 4ward 2 sat... ermz... provided tat those ppl at camp r not 2 tired 2 go out... which i think they will be very tired larz... shall see how...


i realised tat i was still scared... thou some1 else was trying 2 help me... but i was still scared... can any1 explain 2 me y??? y am i so scared of tat thing? i tot it was over le... but tat scary feeling still came back 2 me... and now i oso fear tat the same thing will repeat itself la... but will happen on another de lor... haiz... i feel tat i am so stupid la... haiz... fearful of something which i actually dun haf 2 fear de... haiz...

see my chip-munk... cute? hehe... very good 2 cuddle lor... haha...

2day morning go meet linda 2 buy some things... ya.. find le very long de then found de things... haha... duuno y when i din want it it was there... when i want it it could not be found.. haiz... anyway... bought it... then i come home... prepare from shanlyn, wei ting and shu jie 2 come... then they come over 2 wrap presents... hmm... i think we can be quite bad... haha... ermz... ppl hu get out presents will noe wat i mean le... haha... ermz... ya... and i oso got my glow in the dark de ban ban le... haha... i juz wan pink and blue de le...
then we went for i-guides... hmm... i think it was quite bo liao lor... honestly... no offence here... opps... haha... but... was quite sian la... i think every1 was tierd la... then after tat stayed at the open plaza there 4 a while 2 give off presents... haha... then went 2 the food court 2 look for the rest 2 eat and drink la... i din eat cos i ate b4 i went out... so i juz drank water... then... tat keat said he wanted the king kong de golve... so me and wei ting rush down... wanted 2 get it for him de... budden in the end he say he dun wan... but last piece le lor... in the end i bought something for shu yi... she said she wanted something mahz... so juz buy lor... haha... see i so good de... haha... then went back 2 food court again... got ppl 2 open their presents... haha... was laughing away... shall not post the pic here... cos it's not me... haha... hmm... slack a bit... then went 2 buy xin yu de gift... then went 2 arcade 2 look for the rest hu left without us... haha... gave linda her gift... she was super happy... then gave xin yu oso... she oso very happy... then after tat left le... for the 1st time i took 27 home with seng and eleanor... me and eleanor was like toking 2 keep ourselves awake... then... i change bus at eleanor de bus stop... took 62 home... tok on the phone in the mean time so i wun be as scared... got home... bath then come online 2 chat le... haha... gonna sleep soon... feel very tired larz... last night tok on the phone till 3.30 lor then this morning 8 am wake up le lor... then jiu busy till now... haiz...


i realised tat things were more normal le... is it bcos got more... ermz... '.....' haha... i think so bahz... at least i was not as scared le... erm... or was i? i think i was still a little scared la... haha... but i really hope it will be over soon...

2day go out... went TM de popular... wanted 2 buy something.... but in the end dun haf... cos din sell... then head on to P.S. stay there like from 3 till 7? then bought my chip-munk!!! yeah!!! so happy... thanks seng... haha... then bought a new chocker... star shape and pink in colour... then... bought a new jacket... $25 only lor... i bought the black de... wei ting bought the hot pink de... then after tat met linda and then walk 2 taka... on the way took some photos... ermz... ya... then went taka.. walk walk... eat mac... then walk again... then come home... then now playing with the chipmunk... very soft de... haha... dun feel like sleeping... haha... dunno y these days i dun wanna slp... muz be kena influenced by ppl le... haiz...

2day morning go airport 2 welcum my brother back 2 singapore... hmm... waited 4 him quite long... hu ask him go buy DFG... haiz... then came home... then go heartland mall walk a bit... bought some presents... i super broke liao... sianz la... then come home for dinner... watch TV... then come online... then only pei fang online... so tok 2 her lor... tok cok... crap... act... wateva rubbish we did la... haha... evey1 go out... so shuang... then me at home... nvm... later watch TV again... all thanks 2 pei fang again... cos she remind me got this stupid-cum-funny show going 2 show later... haha...




some1 give me the courage... i wan things 2 go back 2 the past... not like now... when i dun even dare 2............. ermz... shall not say it here... wanna noe can ask me... haha... i will see if i can say or not... haha...

great... now more and more ppl r calling me ah ping or ping ping... argh... pls la... if u all really wanna call me hor... call me ah ping... i dun mind... but dun call ping ping... cos... juz dun call me ping ping la... thanks very much... hehe...

2day is the last day of exams lo!!! happy!!! and christmas is oso coming... which means tat a new year is oso coming le... haiz... time flies sia... haha...
went shopping after the last paper with linda and weiting they all... thou ended up only 3 of us... at 1st was happy happy fun fun... then after tat... every1 moody le... so sad tat i ended up being moody oso... haha... we got go suntec for a while... then go the arcade there... i de-stressed myself by playing on the drums... i totally 4got abt something for tat few seconds... but straight after tat... those things came back into my mind again... haiz... when i can learn 2 4get them? went bugis after tat... hmm... b4 tat i brought a new belt... then oso bought some other presents la... then around 8 went home... then... around 9 plus reah home... ate some food... bath... watch tv... tok on the phone... blog... then i wanna go slp liao...

puiting is in town!!! yeah!!! shopping time!!!

juz put down the phone... was toking 2 linda and i told her wat i think i was feeling... she told me wat i was really feeling... and i freaked out... honestly... i was very scared la... i was laughing like a mad women... but tears were like somewat coming out le lor... see la... i oso dunno y i so scared... haiz... but... i will need help from ppl hu noes wat is going on... i noe got some of them like helping in a way le.. thanks peeps... hehe... erm... i dun wan tat thing 2 go worse la hor... juz dun let me fall deeper into it... get me out of it... muahahaha... feeling so much better after talking 2 linda... my meaning of help is 2 get me out of it... haha... i noe tat i will not fall deeper de... with u all de help... haha... tat day will not come! IT WILL NOT COME DE!!! hmm... but still.. thanks ppl!

haf not been sleeping well these few nights... kept coughinh... fall asleep le oso cough till wake up... haiz... when will i get well???

suppose 2 be studying 4 my B Mic... thou i can't believe tat i am actually studing 4 it... ah well... juz hope can scrape a pass la... hmm... 2day de maths... most prob gone case le... thou there is a light of hope? tmr de B Mic... i study till i am damm super angry la! then i actually tore one set of notes... opps... then haf 2 print out again... stupid me la... but really very irritated la... the facts juz wun get into my mind!!! so i draw a lot of mind maps lor... haiz... hope i do well for all my papers... *fingers crossed*


i juz can't be quiet... foolish thoughts will juz come into my mind... so ppl... if u see me... tok 2 me and make me distracted!!! then i will be more happy... hehe...

maths tatally sucks!!!
i study le still dun understand!!! tmr de paper how? die le la!!! can some1, any1 be kind enuf 2 teach me???

look at the time now... y am i still here? cos i have 2 redo my CSAS... it was accidently deleted from my computer and no matter how hard i tried looking for it, it cannot be restored... so haf 2 do again lor... i am halfway on my 2nd template... i still wonder y i haf so many things 2 write on... i am siao le... haiz... now no 1 online except for 1 person... so sian la... no 1 toking 2 me 2 keep me awake... but i still feel awake anyway... but i bet i will feel sleepy after a while la... since i feel so bored... haiz... how i find time 2 study other things? 2night no need 2 sleep cos of CSAS le lor... win le... tmr sure no energy 2 study de... haiz...



was smsing 2 pei yan yesterday afternoon... was wat she said true? or will wat she say come ture? i fear it... cos i really dun wish for it 2 happen as much as i wan it 2... cos i am very scared la... linda will noe how i feel... dun wish 2 lose a fren juz like tat la...

i feel do troubled!!! i muz not think too much la... or else wat i fear will really come true... and by then i will die... or rather... i will rather die... haha... no la... dun think will come true... some peeps out there will noe wat i am thinking abt... those hu wanna noe??? hm... see how lor... u all ask me i might say i might not say... haha... peeps hu noe, only got limited number.... pls keep 2 yourself... thanks!
tmr is the start of term test... am i well prepared??? i dun think so leh... but i iwll mug like siao over the weekend de... i will.... juz dun sleep lor... at most... but cannot! i am sick le... 2day cos morning took some medicine... in school i was like sleeping for maths and B Mic... cos the medicine 2 strong le... make me feel super sleepy la... then when i came home, i realised tat i am coughing quite badly... even worse than yesterday lor... when can i get well???!!! argh! ppl arounf me were once sick.... i was well... now they r recovering and i am sick!!! stupid la... haiz... i feel so sad... i am not in GL... haiz... sobz.... nvm... i shall concentrate on my term test 1st... when its over then brood over my troubles and sadness... haha... as if la... with my frens around me, i wun feel sad lor... at most troubled only.... like hui nee... she asked me yesterday y i was so quiet.. i cannot say... but in the end cannot tahan oso say out la... haha... 2day was oso rather quiet la... but i hope i can be back 2 my happy self... i can de!!! esp by next friday... hehe... nono... tmr can le... cos the superstar de VCD out le... hehe... should be buying tmr bahz.... see how... need $$$... haha... sian arh!!! wanna slp cannot slp... muz study... haiz.. y is there things called tests and exams???

somebody help me!!! i am coughing non stop!!! dunno wat happened la... last night only cough a bit... then now cough a lot... and my voice oso change le... its like... argh!!! i have 2 announce this AGAIN.... I AM SICK... AGAIN!!! trem test week is like starting this sat for me lor... and i am getting sicker... haha... how am i suppose 2 do well? i oready scared scared of the term test le lor... will i do well? i hope i can... can i? i muz tell myself 2 study so tat i can do well... haiz... time 2 study hard and smart lo...

my MSN duuno y cannot connect... cannot chat!!! so sad... nvm...
hmm... 2day... tiring day again... super long day... but during UIR lab i was like more of toking online la... but oso bcos of me toking so i managed 2 be awake... and its for the 1st time lor... haha... hmm....

this pic is taken on sat... bloddy me in the centre... haha... i sacrifice myself 2 be in poster paint... in the end like got a little bit cannot wash off la... but its ok... haha... honestly, the face was a bit itchy... but...well its over... and in school, when ppl see me, they call me: eh... isn't she the bloody girl shannet? oh pls! my name is han ping!!!

this 1 was taken after i-guides... we went for dinner... then there as this snowman at the tampines interchange... so wan 2 take photo lor... pose nice nice liao... i shout dunno how many times hu wan 2 take photo... then suddenly, as u can see la... got this person de face is like in the centre, big big 1 la... last minuter run in... but lucky all our face can still be seen... haha...

this 1 taken after dinner... we went 2 the pasar malam 2 play bumper car... which was fun 2 us.. haha... after tat some1 suggested 2 take photo... i 4get hu liaos... then take lor... but only got a few... cos afew ppl gone home, a few haven join us... then its like afew ppl here and there la.. hu was there juz take la... haha

actually i am super tired le... i juz reach home not long ago... actually wanted 2 come home around 10 de la... but in the end go with the i-guides 2 play pool... thou i juz sat there 2 watch... cos i really very tired and i am not feeling very well... my back is pain like siao! then the tall guy still kept shaking the chair la... but 4get it la... cos in the end i oso took my medicine... ok... tok abt 2day...
woke at 6.45 to bath and give linda morning call.. haha... then after tat wnet 2 school with her and met the rest at the mushroom... went 2 audi 1 for i-guides lor... then actually we haf 2 usher de la... in the end left the guys do the job and the girls stood there and 'danced'... got high... haha... and it was only the start of the programme... then after tat... play a bit of games... we were told 2 sit at the last row so tat we can ' hehehaha' for the VLP when needed... and yes... we did a great job... haha... but honestly, cos i theink the SM aka station masters were close la... haha... then after tat ate lunch... then started games lor... games was sianz la... cos like very few ppl come 2 our group de mahz.. then i was a bloody girl... will upload the pics tmr... see how bloddy i am... then after tat mass dance, chicky dance and oso TP school song as usual la... then oso danced other things... and tat linda and dunno hu other 2 ppl drag me out 2 dance la... and yes... THEY DRAGGED ME!!! haha... but nvm la... i enjoyed myself... 1st time i stand in the centre 2 dance lor... well... ya... then after tat had de-brief for a very long time... actually i can feel a bit of tension la... but in the end oso ok... then went out for dinner lor... sub-com left 1st... cos the main-com still had meeting... then after tat... ate at CS de long john... then after tat the main-com de ppl came la... then oso got other ppl wan 2 sit mahz... so we left lor... then we wanted 2 sit bumper car... it was then i realised tat my wallet was gone! so rush back 2 long john 2 look for it... but dun haf! then the main-com de ppl still there eating... and i was almost going 2 cry le lor... then panicked... and then... here is the angry part la... MY WALLET WAS WITH LINDA ALL THE WHILE!!! haha... so in the end found it... but it slipped my mind 2 tell the main-com de ppl... opps... sorry... lucky Eleanor asked me and i told her ok le... then went 2 sit bumper car... super fun lehz... (thou b4 tat we see other ppl play boring boring de... cos they r like 1 parent and i young kid to a bumper car la...) then after tat took pics and then they suggested playing pool... i say ok lor... but i actually go there and sit and help ppl look after things la... at 1st said wanted 2 leave at 10pm, then 10.30, then 10.45, then 11 in the end 11.20 then leave... haha... but took cab la... my house and linda de house r honestly 2 dangerous le... haha...shared a cab with the i-guides de teacher... then tok all the way... haha... but b4 we left the place... got 2 hit the b-day boy 40 times... 20 for myself (thou in the day got hit 10 times le), then another 20 for shanlyn... muahahaha.... then i told some of them tat b-day person muz kena hit by his age de mah... so a bit the a lot the ppl oso hit him la... then after tat... i juz remember him saying tok 2 my shoe... wah lao eh... kicked him in the ass... haha... but i not so bad de... so still haf 2 say this: happy b-day soon poh aka uncle! TOK 2 MY SHOE!!! muahahahahaha.... then while the ppl were playing pool, cos i sitting there mahz... then like kena poked la... then stood up when more ppl came, still kena poked and pushed... haha... then left lor... the come home 2 bath and blog here... and i am super sleepy now... but still no mood 2 sleep... dunno y oso...haiz... still high??? hmm...? wondering.... but honestly, i can say tat i enjoyed 2day la... thou the paint on my body really sucks... haha... then juz now spent dunno how long washing myself la... hopefully will haf no pimple from the paint... cos it was really very difficult 2 wash off... sianz...

i am feeling so troubled... haiz... i oso duuno... dunno wat is going on with me.. these few days sick sick... duuno y like cannot get well... only 1 person know wat i am thinking of.. haha... ok.. maybe 2... but pls keep it 2 yourself hor... no mood 2 type anymore... sianz...

i am so super tired... tmr got jap de presentation!!! i die le... haha... cannot memorize somehow... i will bring out my script... at most get lower marks lor... haiz... 2day de i-guides sub-com de briefing... erm.. shall not say anything... dun wanna spoil the fun... hehe... waiting for friday and sat 2 come... haha...

y so late le and i am still here? cos i still doing myhomework!!! juz completed UIR... noe on BNF... then tmr need 2 do JAP... then by tmr oso have 2 do the planning for the community service de thingy... wah... like never ending de lor... then after tat have 2 do CSAS... wah... i can die lor... and i am oready going 2 be sick le... haiz... but cannot! cos term test week coming le... the time table is out le... STRESS ARGH!!! i really feel so tired la... this is like my 1st time after o level staying up so late 2 study and do homework la... last semester de exams oso din like tat.. hopefully i will do better for this semester de exams la... much better i hope... then now i oso got i-guides, thou tat 1 not so tiring la... only on sat... then... hopefully... HOPEFULLY... can get itno GL lor... then trem break oso like no break le... haha... but its ok... as long as i enjoy! haha

2day i oso brought a new bag... oso from converse la... haha... and now i keep sneezing!!! ok... no link... i am tired...

suppose 2 be sleeping... but i choose 2 sacrifice a bit of tat time 2 blog la... haven do UIR and Jap which is due next week lor... i die le!!! UIR somemore on tuesday leh... then jap... i noe how 2 do... but dunno wat pics 2 put... UIR i noe how 2 do la... should be ok...
i dunno wat is wrong with me... feel so tired la... then my eyes r 4eva so teary la.. i am not sad or anything lor... dunno wat is wrong... and its more usually the right eyes....
next week haf 2 buy a new bag le... mine spoil le... so sad... only 4 months old bag spoil le... haha... and somemore its a b-day gift lor... hmm.. dun really noe wat 2 say le...


i still dunno what the heck my mind is thinking of... sometimes i juz feel so tired of it la... and these thoughts r making me moody lor... sometimes i am juz quiet in front of my frens... till they ask me y i so tired... haiz...

wah... 2day so rush la... morning wanted 2 wake at 6... but in the end snooze the alarm till 6.30 then wake up la... then meet alesia 2 go school 2gether... went for the ASC CSC de tok la... so damm boring tat i slept most of the time, and oso was listening 2 my discman with shujie la... then group discussion... i dunno y we cannot juz like get over with it lor.... take so long... so damm sian lar... and my stomach was like grumbling like dunno wat like tat lor... then after tat went for i-guides... hmm... still ok la... thou for me its ok la... got fun parts, go boring parts... well ya... took some pics... actually a lot... haha... at the eng block, then got ppl 2 dance the 'chicken little dance' for us... got 2 groups very enthu which is very good.... i noe am groups 3 de assistant FA la... but the thing is tat group 13 and 14 really rocks... damm good! then i keep changing clothes la... the workshop i wore black, then i-guides i wore pink, then at night i wore red... haha... oh ya... my station was a bit of mess la... but still, i haf 2 say tat we really hid very well tat ppl cannot find us... haha...

then after tat rush 2 my cousins de graduation ceremony... which was super boring la... make me rush like dunno wat like tat, till i panicked till i nearly wanted 2 cry de lar.... but in the end oso late 10 minutes... and it haven even start yet lor!!! stupid la... make me rush... then stuffed a lot of things into my bag lor... then at 9 came home... my aunt fetch so i reached home round 9.30 lor... bath then come internet le... i am super tired, but still haf 2 do UIR and Jap la... so sianz lor... uploaded the pics le... any 1 hu wants tell me la..

i feel so tired... and there is something wrong with my eyes la... dunno y got a lot of tears de... its not i sad or wat la... tmr maths test.. dunno y, i feel as if i noe all abt the maths, budden i oso scared tmr i go into the room then all 4get how 2 do le...
2day wear the new shoes 2 school, tmr most of us wearing the same shoes, then take a pic... haha... the shoe 'bite' me la!!! pain sia... tme lesson start at 8... so i better go slp le...


these days i dunno y but my mind seem 2 be pre-occupied... by i dunno wat...i seem 2 be thinking of.......................................................... the dreams seem so true!!! but well, dreams never come true de... they will be opposite de.... so should i be happy or sad??? puiting should noe wat i am toking abt la... its abt wat i told u on msn la... DUN SAY OUT ARH!!! anything u can tell me on msn... haha...