彬彬的心声

Thursday, August 30, 2007

i was watching the jap version of hana kimi juz now.. its super touching!!! its the part where xiu yi is being deem cheating... and all the frens stood up 4 him.. all willing 2 quit school so as to not lose a good frens... it really made me feel so touched.. a simple thing, a very mutual thing, a very basic thing called frenship.. so weak, yet so strong... it makes me wonder... the frens i haf.. will every1 be the same? if the same thing occur on me... what will happen? no offence 2 any1.. but juz thinking la... i mean, its kind of like impossible lehz... will u be willing 2 make any sort of sacrifice 4 a fren? its really something tat can be tot abt lehz, coming 2 think of it now... hmmm...


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/30/2007 01:09:00 AM | Comment

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

apfs exam is in a few hours and i am still here.. noe y? COS I CAN'T SLEEP!!!! I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP!! some1 save me!!! my paper is in the morning lehz... how??!!! argh!!! my brain wun close!!! i think its scared.. later close le hor, time wake up everything 4gotten le.. haha!!! haiz... i need 2 sleep... help!!!


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/29/2007 01:23:00 AM | Comment

Saturday, August 25, 2007

after a long talk.. after soooooooooooooooooooo much thoughts... it has been decided... i must wait, i haf 2 wait.. it will no longer matter if i might be super 'broken-down' in the end.. the conclusion is juz 2 wait le... since it haf been so long, might as well perservere right? haha!!! till the end it shall be 4 me then! yepz! gamabate!!! BE HAPPY!!! ^_^


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/25/2007 11:31:00 PM | Comment

Friday, August 24, 2007

one more blow and i guess i will be down... i am already on the verge of breaking down le... for many days, tears were juz behind my eyes... but i fought hard and i won!!! so no tears YET! haha!!! main point, YET... cos it might be any day tat i will break down now... but i guess i wanna concentrate on my exams 1st... so best of luck 4 me!!!

halo! u there! can i noe wat is going on please??? its really driving me nuts!!! pls! juz tell me wth r u thinking man!!! dun hide anything from me le can? please?

getting weaker as the days go by... not enough sleep, stressed, sad...


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/24/2007 11:56:00 PM | Comment

Thursday, August 23, 2007

time 2 upload pics lo!!!

pic numer 1:
as said earlier, we were drinking a bit la.. then i 4got tat i was drinking on an empty stomach *opps* :P
pic number 2:
group photo number 1, which i dun look nice at all!! cos i dunno how 2 stand being the 1 and only person in front la..
pic number 3:
group photo number 2, which look so much better? haha!! yeah.. wearing the necklace they gave...
pic number 4:
i dunno when they took this horribe pic man!!! yuckies.. haha!!!
pic number 5:
yeah.. me and ting... she the only lucky 1 2 take pic with me worz... :P
pic nmber 6:
note!!! this pic look at the back please.. not at the front person.. look at those ppl at the back having fun with mini fire-crackers!!! haha!!!
pic number 7:
the time when i was gathering every1 2 take a photo 2gether... ended up only the 2 of them in the pic -_-''' muahahaha!!! but wells, nicely taken.. haha!!
tmr will be a day where i need the help from hope, wishes tat come true, courage, wisdom, sself-esteem, happiness and eveything tat are good la!!! haha!


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/23/2007 11:07:00 PM | Comment

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

sometimes it pays 2 be roaming around in the net... i haf 2 accept things tat i dun wanna see.. 4 another time yet again, i was, can say, heart broken? yeah... i was trembling, hands were so cold, heart was really beating hard, and tears were like free water la... seriously, the net can be such a 'unsafe' place bahz.... but! i 4got 2 say.. i controlled my tears, cos its not worth them 2 drop 4 such a stupid reason... i am lucky 2 haf my frens who immediately called me 2 cheer me up.. thanks gals!!!

perheaps i missed the time already? perheaps everything has turned into anger and hatered? perheaps it time 4 me 2 give up and move on? but y is every1 saying still muz wait? i guess i can only see how as the days go by le... haiz..


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/22/2007 11:13:00 PM | Comment

Monday, August 20, 2007

the past 3 days haf been very fun and happy 4 me.. made more frens, had so much fun and laughter, had celebrations, had the things i wan... so...

THANKS YOU AL VERY VERY MUCH!!!
MUACKS!!! (^_^)


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/20/2007 10:27:00 AM | Comment


now the time has passed 12 midnight... i am officially declared 19... sad... haha!!! no la, kidding nia.. but now being no longer my most important day of the year, i think i can feel sad le hor? cos something juz happened, and it really made my mood went down-hill at a super fast rate... and 2 think tat had 2 hold back my sadness till after 19th aug cos i dun wan myself 2 feel any sad on this very important day! yepz.. anyway, no worries... cos i am feeling much better le, noeing tat so much frens are behind my back and supporting me, and oso giving me all sorts of reason 2 cheer me up... so, yepz, i am much happier now again la.. haha!!!

i keep telling myself, its time2 wake up... i dun think i wanna carry on dreaming on things tat can never ever be fulfilled... i guess it will only cause me misery.. i dun even haf the guts 2 dream any longer...wait till the time is right... when will i ever noe when is the right time???!!!! feelings? haiz... can say 4get it le la.. btw, u really got me freaked out tat i dun even haf words 2 say when i called some1 else later... everything juz went out of me... it was really freaky.... mood was deeply affected.. looks like it will take me another dunno how many months 2 overcome bahz :)


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/20/2007 12:15:00 AM | Comment

Saturday, August 18, 2007

yesterday was such a hetic day tat so many of us were so super tired... morn met wei ting, alesia, shujie and lay yian at 7.40 like tat at city hall mrt... then went 2 the floating stage 2 pack goodie bags 4 2day de 'heartstring walk'.. kind of like a madness thingy la.. the organizers were like late 4 more than 1 hour lor! then nvm.. me and another AC guy by the name of kai yan supposed 2 be the in-charged.. but dunno y became lay yian's de fren... but i oso a bit the 2 lazy 2 bother le la.. so pack pack pack.. with only 20 ppl.. and were like supposed 2 pack 10000 bags??? omg.. impossible la.. so pack till hand pain.. i was in-charged of the biscuit-cum-towel section... had quite a ok time la.. thou i haf 2 admit its not even nearly half as fun as i-guides de packing day lor... kind of boring.. haha!!! then after tat had a lunch break, where lay yian's frens left.. then me and AC changed the plan a bit la... made it go the I-Guides style.. was juz only a bit lsightly faster nia la.. thou not very significant.. but equally tiring.. then after tat left with the gals and duke 2 marine parade de NTUC 2 buy more food de night time de BBQ... BBQ was actually 2 celebrate my birthday la.. haha!!! cos this year falls on a sunday mahz.. so decided 2 bring 4ward 2 a friday lor... hmm.. then buy buy by, desmond come join us.. then after tat went 2 the pit le lor... BBQ food came at 4 plus a bit, des and duke 2 dunno where, and it rained big big!!! so hid in the shelter till rain stop, then the gals juz start the bbq lor.. since no guys was around.. but luckily got a guy from a pit next 2 us came over 2 help us light up the fire and start up... after tat des and duke came back and me 'xhen liang' help us made the fire bigger lor.. haha!!! then ppl start 2 come le.. then cook cook eat eat.. wanna take photo de but apperantly i was like.. toking 2 almost every1 then never take photo.. sad sad.. haiz... ya.. tok a lot with many ppl la... ya... ppl who came were my clique of gals including hui nee, goey aeng, shanlyn, jia wen, wei ting, alesia and shu jie.. then oso got meili, lay yian, xin yu, rubayn, michelle, hwa sheng, leslie, wee kiat, and the piggys li fang, sheena, melissa, deuke and desmond... kind of shock tat li fang actually came.. since was like unable 2 contach her 4 like soooooo long le.. haiz... but good la, she came, at least tat cheer me up a little more la...m y dear PA is back.. haha!!! presents are as follows:a necklace, card, BIG Chip, and a small dale 2 put handphone de, and oso a small mini 'cake' tat is unedible so tat can keep.. haha!!! all from alesia, wei ting, shu jie, hui nee, goey aeng, jia wen and shanlyn...
a chip and dale fan, a chip and dale tower and a water tumble from meili, lay yian and xin yu...


a round shape kind of chip and dale jigsaw which i completed 2day, from michelle, hwa sheng, wee kiat, leslie and rubayn.. the flower shaped and sword shaped ballon is from mr wee kiat cos he was there at the heartstring walk also.. then bored so end up folding then i haf it! yeah! haha!!!

a necklace from li fang, duke melissa, and piggies sheena and desmond.. haha! along with 2 small cakes which i 4got 2 take photo.. and very funny lor! cos the wind 2 big mahz.. so i actually blew out the fire from the lighter itself lor.. haha!!!

dunno which 1 look nicer so juz put both la...

me and the gals having alcohol drink b4 dinner...

ya.. then last night de bbq end around near 11 bahz.. then left with mel, des, duke, sheena, li fang and meili... took cab with duke.. then he alight at my house de bus stop 2 change bus 2 go home... by the time reach home 1 plus le.. my mum and cousin were like shock at the number of presents tat i got la! so much??!!! so big??!! haha!!! and all chip and dale??!!! haha!! yes! i love all the prezzies!!! haha!!! thanks you so much every1!! MUACKS! (^_^) :P

2day morn woke up a 4.30am.. morning call sheena and desmond at 5am.. then called duke at 5.30am... easiet 2 wake up was des, then sheena and then duke... i abit lazy so i only wake up at ard 5.40am :P haha!!! then des and sheena took cab from tamp down 2 duke house then down 2 my house where they pick me and alesia up, then after tat went down 2 the floating stage again... it was a mercs cab.. n the way there saw some police and traffic polices anyhow driving, like cutting from the 3rd lane all the way turn left... can kill ppl de lor! and they were like speeding so fast lor! a normal road with a lot of trafic lights and cars lehz! they could haf killed any1! and obviously they were not doing duty la.. cos they went by us at least twice within 10mins lor! anyways, met with the others at the floating stage, signed attandence, took pass, took shirt, changed shirt then slack... all kena coutesy marshalls except alesia.. so des change with her lor... then do duty.. ya.. then after tat became 'bodyguards' 4 president S.R Nathan... walked beside him so tat ppl wun crowd around him.. 4 the 1st time i was like walking next 2 him but cannot tok 2 him, nor shake his hand nor take pics.. haha!!! its ok la... then after tat slack around the floating stage.. then went back under the floating stage with meili and sheena.. met XL, jashua and alan there.. wee kiat joined us later.. then we slacked there.. then after tat went back the VIP lounge... hmm those under nat kind of merge 2gether la... then kind of like got entertainment from some AC ppl.. and they really got me laughing.. no offence but it was really my 1st time seeing ppl suck in helium gas and changing 2 a super cute voice lor! haha!! then after tat take cert, take money then left le.. cos they ran out of lunch so no lunch 4 us le... then after tat went marina square with wei ting, shu jie and alesia 2 eat lunch at the food court.. sat by the window and say the guys again as well as AC... eat finish le jiu go home.. once home, bath, net a while then slept lo! haha... woke up only at dinner time but i am still tired...

i wanna say out everything soon.. somehow i juz feel tat something is right but something might be wrong.. haiz.. sianz.. let me juz drop hints here and there bahz.. btw, those things tat u said 2 me and the special stuffs u did, were they hints 2 me as well???



^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/18/2007 09:11:00 PM | Comment

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

well apperantly, i 2day was not in a very happy mood by 12noon... cos! i feel so damm demoralised!! cos i dunno y recipes juz can't work out!!! when ppl b4 me haf done it b4... feel so sad lor... ya... haiz.. 2day is juz a sian and sad day le lor.. cos after tat i went with my parents 2 buy things.. i norm will juz take and throw into trolley de.. but2day, juz walk with them.. then really super sian lor.. haiz.... juz no mood la... haiz...

i can feel the gap in between us tat is growing so far apart.. i really dunno wat 2 say le... i was sad partly bcos of the gap and the distance.. but i chose 2 remain quiet andl et my tearsdrop later... thou i haf been fighting hard 2 stop it, it juz wun stop.. i dun wanna break the trend of postings happy post for some time le.. but no choice.. 2day is juz a very sad day 4 me.. esp. after... 'seeing ppl' bahz.. haiz..


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/14/2007 10:43:00 PM | Comment

Thursday, August 09, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!



2day went out 4 dinner with 'family' again, along with some other ppl... dinner was at JUMBO seadfood restaurant at ECP... chose tat location so tat can see fire works... well, managed 2 ctach the helicopters the closest... got them flying, and oso saw the big, big SUPER big nation flag flew by.. i was directly under it u noe!! omg! had an even close look than those at the parade la, i guess? ya...

but b4 tat managed 2 catch the 2 helicopters practicing their 'moves' which was very nice la... then after tat oso saw 3 of the air-planes, and oso the fire-works.. thou the fire-wors i haf 2 say its kind of small thou.. cos i think we were 2 far away le bahz.. but! its ok! at least next fri and sat i will still be able 2 see them oso!! haha!!! can't wait!!! 2day oso had my 1st b-day cake, bought by family fren de... 2 celebrate both mine and my mum's birthday... happy but shy la, cos practically the whole restaurant de ppl turned 2 look at us, then those upstaris really had a good view of us la.. and got this 1 table which was literally like staring? ya. i felt kind of odd la...the birthday song was played over in the restaurant oso but apparently ppl at the table were really singing the song out loud, even louder than the PA system la.. we sing finish le the song oso haven end lor.. haha!! ya, but i really happy thou.. haha!!! juz happy la (^_^)

9 more days left!!!



^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/09/2007 10:41:00 PM | Comment

Monday, August 06, 2007

last fri was somewat a chaotic day! haha.. actually, its more of a 'funny' day bahz... morn went with alesia 2 change her hp keypad... then was lunch at yoshi, then was school 4 further uni toks by ntu, sim, smu and nus... then after tat went 2 makan!! at soul garden! omg! laugh so much till tears can drop and stomach ache la!!! all laugh till dunno how 2 eat le lor! haha!!! we took so much chicken and eggs la!!! haha!!! erm, ya.. laugh laugh eat eat.. till i really stomach ache le la! haha! but i haf never laughed so much in such a long long time le... so can say i very happy la... haha!!! yupz..
later got mp meeting miss choo, then after tat is food safety de test le.. haiz... sianz....


^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/06/2007 11:58:00 AM | Comment

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