3 more days left nia!!! yeahness!!! haha!!!

i feel like giving up.. dun feel like telling u the truth... feel like hiding everything from u... dun wanna lose u... wat should i do???!!! can any1 tell me? wat will happen if i say things out???

morse code morse code, perheps u can tell me???

past 2 days haf been going out.. to many food companies!!! y? cos of my mp lor, aka fyp... i need 2 go out 2 find food suppliers le...hmm... sat went 2 some open day 4 a certain food comapny which i dunno, but i dun find their food nice, and honestly, the cream of mushroom coos tat our school cook is much nicer than thiers.. even ice-cream tat we made were better than theirs lor! nvm.. then went their next door 2 but sausages... omg la, so many different types.. dunno which 1 2 choose from.. then next was to their next door, which apparently sells different kinds of sea food.. kind of very ex la.. then i spent more than 20 mins in their cold room. out of which ard 5 to 10 mins their temp drop 2 the lowest cos they on their themosat, ot wateva u call tat thing la... but some cod fish, my fave fish!!! haha!!! then went 2 but some 'hai sheng' at jln ulu ulu... haha!!! then went 2 eat yummy fish head curry @ sembawang.. simply rocks man!!! then at night went to tamp de courts and giant.. went with my aunt and cousins... cos all small small kids.. then something very odd happen. my aunt de kids miriciously all wanted 2 sit with me lor! nvm.. ate dinner then went 2 courts.. cos SPONGBOB was there.. the kids were going go-go-ga-ga over them la.. then went 2 giant walk walk lor.. we gave the kids drink free beer.. my mum can't finish her cup and gave it 2 my 5year old cousin and she drank it up.. and she siad it was nice.. beer was from a certain 'h' comapny...
2day moren went 2 some vege company... lost track of the company name and was ard tat sungi area 4 more than 30 mins, roaming ard.. went 2 some wheat grass cum mushroom company, then when we finally reach the farm we were looking 4, it was a huge gush of disappointment la.. then after tat went 2 another farm.. mummy bought vege there, while i brought my aunt's kids ard, feeding rabbit.. oh ya... b4 tat oso went 2 a goat farm.. the goats there like so many years never eat like tat sia... i hold the hay they stand on their hind legs and fight the hay lor -_-''' hmm.. ya.. then after tat went 2 eat @ some u***n f**m place (they famous 4 paper wrap chicken de) and i tell u, DUN EVER GO THERE!!! reason?
1) service suck... they serve tat time hor, spill water de lor! nvm, din say sorry nvm le.. and DIN CLEAN UP!!! juz let the water flow then my pants were all wet la! until we call them clean up then come clean de lor! and stil no sorry lor!!! wat the fuck?!!!! lucky tat its plan water.. wat if its coffee? soft drinks! then wat? whole day i haf 2 be stick sticky arh! fuck la!
2) unhygenic... y? hey serve hor, they wan 2 stack dishes on top of other dishes lor!!! wth! wat if i haven finish? u juz stack lor!! HALO!! I DUN WANNA GET STOMACH ACHE HOR!!!
3) food suck... no need 2 say much. the food is juz simply not nice at all
4) damm ex... 6 ppl eat more @ $150 lor!! and u noe wat? their serving are so damm small la!!! cuttle fish, 1 person on ly get 2 eat 1 small piece lor.. u noe norm the sotong they cut up into rings right? ya!!! 1 person only get 2 eat 1 ring!!! their prok in soup only give 2 damm small piece, egg only give 1, mushroom soup oso only give 2 pieces of mushroom.. OEI! U EXPAECT 6 PPL 2 SHARE 1 SMALL EGG AND 2 PIECES OF PORK ARH! MIGHT AS WELL DUN SERVE!!! desert was agar-agar, @ $10 like tat la! siao! i make at home myself oso only $2 nia lor! and drink were like @$2/ can??? wth!!! somemore no parking space de lor!!! wth!!!
5) place is damm dirty.. totally made me lose my appetite 2 eat
i seroisly feel like telling AVA or NEA 2 go down there lor, they sure no need 2 do any more business de lor... dun even noe if their food is clean ma lor.. their bowl 4 soup got black black things de lor, we still had 2 clean outself 1st de lor... damm it la! damm super pissed of! ARGH!

okies... past few days all haf not been home 4 dinner... or rather.. even when i was out, i oso din eat cos others all din eat so i oso dun eat le lor.... yesterday went venture era... hmm... shan't tok 2 much abt it.. juz did my subject selection, going back 2 lab le.. sianz.

yeah!! 7 more days and sip will be over le!!! yeah!!! haha!!! 2day go celebrate b-day of some1, tmr go out look 4 job i think... dunno abt tmr yet... next thurs got dinner with i-guides main com, and next fri lunch at table top with fellow in-house sip-ers AND!!! ITS THE END OF SIP!!!!! omg, can't wait 4 next fri 2 come la... haha!!!damm happy!!! kind of cannot wait 4 my mp 2 start.. my mp is so darn fun lehz!! at least 2 me la, cos i will be doing wat i like, and there will be a chef coming in lehz.. juz 2 guide me andm y grp and make sure tat we learn some thing... haha!! start of mp= start of i-guides.. omg la, i juz can't wait lor.. haha!!! 4 now, i shall not think 2 much of how am i and if i am, going 2 do some thing... tat i can worry in maybe anohter 50 more days later.. haha!!
counting down: 59 more days to my fav day of the year... (pls arh, hopefully u noe wat day izzit, dun tell me national day)

haiz.. i dunno wat is wrong with me de la.. i dunno y i was so damm super scared of seeing u that i really trembled u noe? i dunno wat is wrong.. i mean seriously la.. i dunno wat is wrong la.. i dun even noe wat am i fearing lor... very stupid right? but i dunno y i juz cannot help it la.. 'ah bu', really sorry that i made u wasted your effort.. but i really juz can't help it but 2 run away la... i noe i very stupid, but i really juz cannot help it lehz... i only noe tat wat is going on now is somewat normal la.. tat i how i feel la.. cos of previous experience that caused me 2 be so scared.. i think i will hate the previous person even more.. cos tat person is the cause of all my misery now lor.. damm sad lor.. haiz...


it used 2 be a sweet thing when i see u.. now, i dunno y but its seems 2 be a torture... even whe i dream of u, i will wake up in tears... dreams of u r sweet b4 i felt scared.. now, i rather not haf those dreams...

2day tok tok a lot with meili.. she told me 2 do something which i absolutely dare not do de!! how? bu arh, i think even if u give me the courage hor, i dun think its enough courage 4 me 2 tell him the truth de lor... haiz...until then then see how things goes le la.. maybe, at most, i juz haf 2 go thru pain and then 4get again? i am really scared la.. everything i say is i dunno i dunno, how? haiz... and the more i think abt it, the more i feel its impossible.. i dunno y u all, 9 out of 10 ppl told me tat its possible lor... do u all really see it tat way? or izzit juz a feeling?? haiz.. i feel so confused... morse code, r u in the same boat as me, tat is y the 2 of us r like tat? going around in our own circlr, yet not stepping out? if 1 of us were 2 step out of our circle and put ourself on the path haven made 4 us, will it be a very happy ending 4 the both of us? i hope u can read this and think oso la... if u read this, reply me via e-mail kz? provided u noe hu u r :P haha ^_^

haiz.. hu can i look 4 4 my mp??? fan arh!!! how??? i really feel like crying!!! argh!!! ARGH!!!!!!! haiz.. some1 pls help me!! save me!!! AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

and i haf 2 say this.. i miss u loads... thou i dun think u noe hu u r, i still haf 2 say i miss u... haiz...

2day was back 2 the dentist day 4 me.. cos my mouth very very pain.. sadness... the doc say cos its my bone too dry le, tat's y will cause the pain, and that the string will dissovle only after 2 or 3 weeks... haiz... this morning, i woke up with teary eyes, i realised tat i had been cying bcos of a dream.. i was feeling some fear last night abt some1... and the next thing i knew, i dreamt abt tat some1! it was suppose 2 be a sweet dream but i dunno y it juz turn out 2 cause more fear in me... i kept hafing visions of the dream during the whole day.. they say dreams will never come ture... will mine turn out 2 be the same? i actually sort of hope tat wat i dreamt of will come true thou :P

i went for a tooth operation and an extraction on the past tuesday.. result of the operation? my wisdom tooth had 2 be cut into 3 pieces b4 it could be taken out, thus there was 3 stiches...

and this is how i look like now.. sad case sia...

and now, i only haf 2 say haiz haiz and haiz... strange things happening, odd things were spoken, strange things were heard... hmm, which should i believe?