2day had our IG finale.. well, its sad, but i din cry.. shook many hands, said many byes... felt so touched by so many ppl... hm.. ya.. its the end le... IG no more :( and i promised some1 something... i'll put it on my msn nick, but i'll write here as well la...

Mr DEXTER, i will drop a few drops of tears 4 u cos i felt so touched tat u came over 2 IG instead of being in EG... thank u sooooo much! :P so touched... lol

hmmm, yesterday had our H&W project show.. ITS A SUCCESS!!! we done everything within 2 hours! woots!! a lot of ppl lor! after tat slacked ard with ming hui and 'bu nan bu nui'.. took pics, but dun wanna post la.. damm fugly de.. haha!! had CSAS job interview as well.. hmm kind of nervous so screwed up a little... but overall was well done i think... 2day had 15 mins of bo liao lec, then waited 6 and a half hours juz for another 15mins briefing -_- do MP, eat with tsali and gang, go SAR settle some stuffs, off 2 libraray a while, briefing, discuss MP, go library borrow books, then go home le...

i was very hurt 2day... i felt as if i was a total stranger 2 u.. somehow, i feel tat we are really no longer frens... its really very hurtful.. words juz can't describe the hurt tat i go thru... its really juz 2 painful.... but, i will only feel sad.. i wun cry 4 u anymore... its not worth it.. u r not worth my fren anyway....

i'm in my midst of studying for my health and wellness quiz tmr.. ut need a break so here i am typing... since my previous posts haf stated my ban-ness from the cafe, i think i should properly thank and apologise whole loads of ppl.. here goes:

THANK YOU TO...
(MP GALS)
Ming Hui: thanks 4 being my supporter.. oways go home 2gether, when i was sad, u were there 2 share things with me, and oways encouraging me, to make sure tat i dun feel as stress and so that i can perform better. thanks 4 being thru the thick and thin with me...

Li Min: thanks 4 being a very accomdating group mate.. u oways give in to me de.. thanks so much!!! and oso trying 2 share my work load with me so tat life will be easier 4 me...

Yi Jia: gal, dun be sad le kz? and dun blame yourself le.. think on the good side, we can study and do our report now... so cheer up kz? i hope everything is ok.. thanks 4 oways making fun of me and cheer me up.. its has been fun working with in at the cashier area, making drinks, taking orders and making dessert.. arigato so so much!

Ying Pei: thanks 4 taking over my role in the kitchen :P i was supposed 2 be in there but in the end become u le.. xin ku so much le!!! but anyways, has been fun working with u.. with the never ending making-fun-of-me-and-my-scadals.. haha!! thou not true but they do cheer me up.. lol.. thanks!

Winnie: thanks 4 the entertainment with qiao ling and edward... and the lamness and joke-ness that u provide us with... not 4getting the cute-ness i haf 2 admit.. haha!! pai seh wor! oways make u wash things!

(BCS)
Tsali: finally i got the spelling of your name correct! haha!!! happy hor, 1st name 2 appear on the BCS list :P yeah.. thanks 4 being a great fren and oso sharing so many things with me... oso thanks 4 spending your sats in school with me, after school still pei me go eat dinner, and chatting with me so tat i can vent my mood somewhere.. yeah, i agree with u, the 2 of us has so many in common cos we are the dragon gals :P u cheer up and u go gal kz?! GAMBATE and THNAKS!!

Corinne: gal, i never see u quite some time le lehz.. where u dissapear 2? but still, thanks 4 speaking up 4 me in front of the guys.. haha!! remain at your cheerful and bubbly self kz? thanks 4 helping me desgin my OH shirt!! muackies!

Martin: thanks 4 letting me call u bu nan bu nui, martini and so many other names la... oways make me laugh oso de... and your laughter!! so easy 2 imitate de! thanks 4 oways vibrating 4 us 2 see oso.. haha!!! :P next time dun burn my soup and sauce oso wor..haha!! thanks u so much 4 helping out the most! e.g. helping us carry the heavy stuffs.. u noe wat i mean with the burnt pasta :P

Andy: thanks 4 letting me vent my anger on u... allow me 2 hit u and threathen u with your apron :P thanks 4 being my new fren and still willing 2 be fren with me despite u knew tat i hated u intitally cost of my past frens... thanks 4 oways making me laugh and had a new scandal 4 awhile.. erm, no thanks 2 tat thou :P

Yong Wei: mr cartoon!! mr tom! haha!! thanks 4 oways showing me your cartoon face 2 make me laugh yea.. thanks! thanks 4 helping out so much thou i dun think i really know u well la... but still, no matter wat, oways toking me whenever u see me.. haha!!! thanks!

Edmund: mr tallest guy of all!! thanks 4 being tall man! so tat u oways help us take things tat is 2 high 4 us 2 reach.. haha!! and oso your a bit de blurness oso sometimes make me wanna laugh... so yes, indirectly, thanks 4 cheering me up!

Aloysius: thanks 4 ganging up with your 'brothers' and making me laugh and haf fun whenever i am with u guys! and oso thanks 4 oways heling out, and keep pestering me 4 things to do.. haha!!! thanks u very much!

Tsali, Corinne, Martin, Andy, Yong Wei, Edmund, Aloysius, Joachim: Thank u all 4 oways staying back 2 help out despite being very very tired!!! thank u for pei-ing me till late late (8-9pm) in school!!! thank u so soo much.. without u guys, i would haf died! thanks you!!! thank u 4 working co-operatively with me and thus making the cafe a success! THANKS!!! ^_^

Joachim, Jamie, Lihui, Jia Yin,Ceryl,Jolene, Huixin, Crystal, Farizah, Shahidah, Faezah, Pamale, Christine and any others: Thanks to all of you for helping out with the cafe in one way or another!!! thank u so much!!!

(Teachers)
Miss Choo: thank you very much for all your guidance... thank you for oso wanting to help us with our h & w, as well as our reports.. thank u 4 letting us haf this chane to run a cafe and laern so much from it, experience and grow from it.. thanks u so very much! pls do take care of yourself, esp your shoulders, and pls dun tire yourself out too much.. can oways look 4 me for help de! THANKS!! ^_^

Mr Lau: who only wans 2 be known as michael cos younger -_- anyways, thanks 4 teaching me so so so many things! has been a agreat learning journey for me.. thou everytime play with u, toking back tat seems like mei da mei xiao, but i hope u din take offence 2 any of it (i dun think u did right?) thank u 4 letting me haf the chane 2 experience the running of a FCS lab... and thank u 4 your laughter and jokes tat never fails 2 cheer up our day... pls tc, dun be 2 angry, and dun tire yourself out... can look 4 me 4 help de (if i dun go looking 4 u 1st):P THANKS! ^_^

Mrs Evelyn Lim, Mrs Doris Chin, Ms Adrina Chung: thank u teachers 4 being so understanding with me, knowing that i'm tired, stress, busy or even sad.. thank u 4 providing me with the extra help on the things tat i do not understand, or if i do not know how 2 do.. thank u so much!!!

My gang of 7 gals!!!
Alesia, Wei Ting, Shu Jie, Shanlyn, Jia Wen, Hui Nee, Goey Aeng: thank u so much 4 keeping this importatn frenship tat u haf given me.. thank u 4 still being there 4 me, even thou i haf not seen u gals 4 a long long time already! thank u so much 4 still keeping the frenship, even thou i haf not been active in it.. THANK U GIRLS SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!! MUACKS!!!!

Apologising to:
(MP gals)
Ming Hui, Li Min, Yi Jia, Winnie, Ying Pei: very sorry if i in any way offended any1 of u in any ways at all.. be it being impatient, or be it raising my voice sometimes.. really very sorry!!!

(Project grps)
PDM: Ben, Li Wen and Kharuna: very sorry tat i was spending so much time 4 my mp tat i neglected PDM... very sorry that i din help out at all, except during labs, and i was oso only doing the things u all told me 2 do.. really very sorry!!!

H&W: Li Wen, Cai Yun and Deb: very sorry that u gals had 2 do so much work 4 H&W cos i was 2 busy at the cafe.. really very sorry!!! rest assured tat i will help out in the report and the booth.. once again, sorry!

(BCS)
To any students who din received your wanted apron: i'm really sorry tat i couldn't give u all the apron. this is cos of the commitment level.. it does not mean tat if u help a little, u could receive it.. there is a system tat i am over-seeing... very sorry... i wun haf a chance 2 give you your apron anymore, cos i can't give it 2 u anymore, even if i want to... sorry!

Tsali, Corinne, Martin, Andy, Yong Wei, Edmund, Aloysius, Joachim: very sorry tat u ppl haf 2 stay back with us almost everyday 2 cook and pack and clean... very sorry 2 tire all of u out... very sorry 2 keep all of u so late, very sorry 2 burnt your saturday juz like tat.. really very sorry!!!

(Teachers)
Mrs Lim, Mrs Chin, Ms Chung: very sorry tat i oways doze off in class.. cos i dun haf enough rest.. very sorry!!

Miss Choo, Mr Lau: very sorry if i haf given the 2 of u any trouble during this period, esp when i'm slow at doing some things.. very sorry tat i could no longer help out.. very sorry!!!

and this is a super big SORRY going out 2...

My gang of 7 gals!!!
Alesia, Wei Ting, Shu Jie, Shanlyn, Jia Wen, Hui Nee, Goey Aeng: very sorry fpr neglecting our frenship... so sorry tat u all din see me 4 so long le... really sorry!!! the frenship tat u gals give me, cannot be found anywhere else... so sorry!!!

-the end-

2day is a day where my eyes are like tap water.. i cried dunno how many times la... reason? cos we are simply NO LONG ALLOWED TO GO HELP OUT AT THE CAFE! wat shit la! not even if we volunteer lor! damm irritating la! if we wanna go, its our freedom lor! bastard school has no rights 2 take away my freedom man! yes, i admit its taking 2 much of my time.. its good u all are doing something 4 us! but ITS NOT GOOD when u juz totally stop us from going there altogether la! somemore wannna force my teacher 2 lie 2 us? pls la! we r no fools lor! we can see u forcing her la! wth!!! u all think wat? operating the cafe so easy? the y dun u all help out instead of seating in your office the whole day? cos u all have other things 2 do? our teachers dun haf arh?!!!! they got class de hor!!! and pls la! their body condition oso not good lor! no 6 of us nvm.. u even deprive them of other help?? halo! u think wat? they superman arh?! idiots la! so capable go do yourself la! u dun fall sick i'll laugh arh!
yesterday when i heard the news, i cried... this morning, 1 teacher came and ask me bout the other student, i cried again, when toking 2 other teachers, i cried again, when saying bye, shaking hands, i cried again, when toking on the phone, i juz cry again! i really cannot take it la... all my hardwork juz taken away like tat.. 'apperciated' say only mah! i oso noe how 2 say! i can say i wanna slap u.. oso say only mah! at least our teachers oways show us the appreciation la! wat abt u bitch and bastard! fuck off la! i can't wait till the day u get sacked lor!

its the end of my real life learning class.. i've learnt so damm much do u noe tat.. u juz deprived me of my learning ground, my fun, my friends...

islept very little the past few days.. know y? cos i keep having nightmares abt my accident... during day time, i can tremble cos i will haf visions abt my accident as well... i can't imagine if i were any slower, i would haf my thumb gone.. omg! argh.. some1 help me man! how 2 sleep? i wun haf the energy 2 work andstudy lor.. and i dunno y my thumb is still bleeding slightly... horrible.. i swear tat the thumb is a very damm important part of out hand lor.. dun believe? go try.. dun use your thumb 4 everything, dun wet your thumb also.. u will find how horrible it is.. wearing clothes got prob, bath got problem lor.. cannot carry things, cannot do thins oso lor.. i keep thinking, wat can i do in the cafe.. only thing i can do how? makedrinks using one hand, serve using 1 hand, do cashier job using one hand, basically, do everything using 1 hand.. but its so damm unstable la -_-

my left should to arm is now in pain oso la.. its swollen!!! cos of the jab i think.. the medicine could not spread and thus is all gathered there... well, i haf no idea wat 2 do next but 2 wait 4 it 2 recover bahz...

2day went out shopping with shan.. i tell u its horrible lor.. cos hor.. almost everything i tried on has button!!! and without the thumb, its damm difficult 2 button and unbutton la! omg! i the end, when i tried 2 use my thumb, it bled -_- by the time i reach home, it was still bleeding.. i wonder y.. but i managed 2 buy bottoms andtp for the new year! yeah!!

both teachers smsed me 2day, asking bout my conditions and stuffs... well, sorry 2 caused them 2 worry la.. but i dun think they will be reading this.. so yea... and i got a packet of biscuit from irene.. and its known as.. 'BABY BISCUIT!' and its only 4 me la -_- cos i was crying due 2 the pain in my hand... so, the normal biscuit 4 me was known as baby biscuit -_- so funny la...

fri a lot ppl came 2 the cafe 2 ask bout my conditions.. touched touched.. feel so vunerable.. cos every1 was asking me 2 be careful, they dun ask me 2 do anything etc... felt kind of bad but there was nothing i could do la... head tat ppl say i was cool and brave.. like remained so clam for 2 mins b4 i cried due 2 pain... but i think cos got teachers and guys down there so i din wanna cry la.. dun like 2 cry in front of guys lehz... but in the end bo bian.. 2 pain! haha!!!

but 2 all:
i'm now much better le.. juz slight bleeding cos my wound 2 big le.. (according 2 miss choo) yep.. its still slightly painful and i still cannot exert stress on it.. no heavy stuffs for now, hopefully will fully heal in 1 week, or latest, 1 month time.. oh ya, and 2 any1, if possible, tell me remedy 2 4get abt this horrible incident so tat i can sleep properly la... thanks!

cute? lols!!!

but anyways, really wanna thank every1 who showed me the concern.. really thank u so much!!! i'm really super touch! and very sorry 2 my gal frens and the BCS pl who were there.. i think i shock u all like mad right? might haf freaked u guys out.. sorry bout tat! thanks 2 irene who pei me through out the whole thing and caused u 2 go home so late.. sorry and thanks! sorry mr lau made u worried like mad! and thanks 4 rushing me 2 the doc! and really, once again.. THANKS 2 ALL!

2day got VVIPs come in 2 eat in our cafe.. madness man! serve food, intro food, clear plates etc.. well, dun wanna say much but some ppl r juz damm irritating! haha!!! ok, end of story

i was reading other ppl's blog.. then saw so many og them blog about OH or IG.. i read fiona's and realise tat the main comm cried... its so sad tat i can't be there with them, if not, i would haf cried 2... i mean, its the last year... as i was reading the blogs, i started 2 cry as well... i juz can't take it! i really cannot put ig behind me... i mean, it has been my life in the past 3 years.. its the things tat made me cheerful...i saw hock chuan 2day.. he was back at TP.. somehow, seeing him makes me think of my 1st year... i dunno.. but all of a sudden, i juz felt so damm sad... esp now.. i can't stop crying le... fish, ang and ah bu!!! where are u, pei me cry 2gether.. i'm the closing ceremony we will cry la... omg, can't wat 4 tat day 2 come.. its tat day tat i can see every1 again.. one last time... i'm juz so sad now...
IG no more, CAFE killing me, teachers stressing me, no time 2 do projects :'(


celebrated andy's b-day last night.. lazy 2 post the pics.. maybe some other time bahz.. its the BCS andy btw...

haiz... can u imagine.. its a sat, yet i haf 2 go back school 4 mp? cook and prepare the cafe for monday lor... sian de lor.. haiz... but! its a good thing bcs was there 2 pei me :P yes.. its bcs, not my mp grp.. cos yi jia's grp haf cca, then hui is sick, min has things on.. so there we were, cooking and having fun.. haha!!! all the way till 5 plus then go home worz... wanna thank them soooo damm much man!!! if it weren't 4 them, i dun think i can even go home at all la...learn the 'art of packing up the kitchen' as well as 'the art of squeezing' things.. haha!!! THE KITCHEN NOW IS SO SPACIOUS!!! woots man! haha!!! but still go so many things 4 me 2 do over sunday.. my weekend totally burnt le la :( now they keys are in my hand.. so meaning tmr i haf 2 reach school early oso -_- and there are still cleaning up 2 do tmr.. haiz...
anyways, at night attended my aunt's son's de 1st birthday party.. many ppl were there... but i was tired... so din really tok much.... yep... then well, some adults juz piss me off la.. 4 goodness man! i juz had a full day of school and is damm tired la! i'm not a slave ok! prepare food 4 u le still scold me! wth! dun eat la! then wat.. wan me 2 serve u? fuck off la! i'm no slave nor servent hor! wth! irritating to the max sia! i'm extremely tired so i'll be damm pissed off easily la.. i oready tried 2 smile and stuffs le lor... haiz... nvm... so instead of being ard with those irritating ppl, i went into the living room where i could haf silence 2 go thru my mind wat i need 2 do 4 mp, where i could rest slightly after a tiring day... then wait 4 them 2 cut cake.. wanted 2 go home but held back cos they wan us 2 eat the cake? but wait wait and wait.. in the end oso never eat le jiu go home -_- i really need 2 rush so bo bian la... kor and gf went shopping.. and at home, b4 they reached home i was into la la land le.. i dun even know when they came home lor.. even when dad and mum sleep i oso dunno sia... and it was only ard 11pm only? haha!!! 2 tired 2 even do much for mp... so 2day have 2 chiong le la... haiz...

CHIONG ARH!!!


i'm happy tat i'm so busy.. at least it kept my mind off so damm many stupid things la.. haha!!!

omg.. i dunno y i feel damm pissed off!! i juz found out something online... and i feel so betrayed? its like ya... then its like... i feel as if i've wasted my frenship la! i feel so easily 4gotten la! its like... argh!!! i'm angry, i'm disappointed.. i dunno y i dun feel the sadness yet.. maybe it will start 2 sink in later? yes.. as i'm typing i feel like crying le.. frens out there take note. dun be 2 good frens wit hthe opposite gender.. once they got their other part, they will 4get u and treat u like shit de... damm it man! i'm sooo damm pissed la!!!


in another hand, 2day had our very very 1st trial run 4 the cafe.. well, kind of very cramp and messy but it still went well la... wanna apologise 2 the fsm class who came in.. but rules are rules and sometimes, i really haf 2 be a bad person la... i noe every1 is tired, but dun compare cos i haf slept a total of only 4 hours from wed till now... so mood a bit different la... but still, great job 2 all of u! thank u so much 4 helping out!!!

and oso thank u so much 2 the BCS students who came as well.. esp tasli aka ah ce.. hu was there 2 pei me almost everyday... ok la.. still got andy and martin (ah ko) the bu nans bu nuis? haha!!! but nevertherless always fill the cafe with sound and laughter yet they are very hardworking... then still got jolene hu oways pei me walk back 2 AS school, crystal, thou i dunn u well but u still come help out, aloycious, jason, jeremy, edmond, and etc etc la.. really a lot... really, thank u huys and gals very very much... really thank u!!!

and not 4getting the mp gals, ming hui, li min, yi jia, ying pei and winnie... u gals are great 2! keep up the work.. its only the beginning! dun tire yourself too much 1st kz?
and oso miss choo and mr lau la... xin ku le!