i really miss my old dept... i'm toking 2 one of my collegue at my ex dept.. as i'm typing, i'm kind of crying....

1st cry: ryan break the news tat i'll no longer be with my dept... a new gal will be replacving me, and i dunno where i'll be

2nd cry: i'm allocated 2 a corner which will be seated by some1 else but not me = no proper table, no proper position

3rd cry: minyee says i'll be returned 2 joanna, but dunno where i'll be yet

4th cry: on a thursday when i found out tat i'll be with joanna on a friday, the next day... i was crying and begging minyee juz 2 let me stay for 1 more day..

5th cry: i found out tat i'll no longer be at level 3 of hitachi tower, instead, i'll be sent 2 SCB at battery road ALONE!!! no more frens, no more happiness, no more ppl i like...

6th cry: i had no table nor chair at SCB batt rd... i was standing at the enterance of 27th level, facing the whole company... and every1 was like asking why the hell i'm there? every1 was staring at me...

7th cry: my 'ex' boss said tat he dun wan me 2 put my things at securities dept cos i'm oways there 2 disturb huizhi and yolanda.. when all i was doing was helping them? the hurt is damm... ouch..

8th-???th cry: everytime i tell some1 where i am, why i'm there and wat happen, i'll oso cry... juz told jeff wat happened, i'm crying... as i'm typing, i'm oso crying...


I REALLY MISS MY SECURITIES DEPT LIFE!!!!!

ok.. 2day's me last day at my Securities Department... hmm, kind of sad.. yesterday when ming yee told me tat supposedly 2day i'm suppose 2 be with joanna, i cried... but luckily, joanna on leave 2day, so i get 2 stay with my dept!!! haha!! dam happy!!! as usual, the thanks and a bit rubbishy stuffs...

ppl from my dept, past, present and future...

1) kristine: thanks 4 being our 1st mentor and teaching us so much thing and introducing us 2 the many gal frens there... thou only spent a short time with u, but... yep, a lot of memories le...

2) ryan: thanks 4 being a great boss! 4 guiding us all the way and being patient with us.. thou sometimes u can be abit quite fast la.. me and ting might haf been kind of loud so yea, sorry... sometimes u oso funny funyy de, esp during lunch time.. O.o and thanks 4 standing up 4 us against CSe, RMs and those guys who loves 2 bully me :P

3) shu fang: hmm... din really like u at 1st de, but u kind of grew on me att i started 2 find u 2 gossip and tok etc.. so yea, thanks gal! and hor, pls take care of your body more kz? ^_^

4) hui zhi: erm, i'm only your teacher for 3 weeks... time past so fast, now u're officially taking over me le :( no worries! any prob juz call my hp can le.. i've written the no big and clear 4 u le kz.. haha!!!

5) daniel: big moo!!! thanks 4 creating fun times 4 us in the office... the guy who oways buy bubble tea, the guy whom when rain can call and ask him bring umbrella de etc etc :P aka, mr nice guy la... haha!!! so, do u need mroe 'hens?'

6) kelly: i think u might not be in singapore le... thou u look quiet quiet de.. but the 2nd lunch with u shocked me le.. din noe u can be so fun and crappy as well de! haha!!! have a great time noeing u... take care and miss u!

7) jeff: the guy on a long term field trip from IMH! haha!!! yea, you're nice as well so erm.. ya.. haha!!! oways covering for min yee and ryan when they not ard.. no more chance 2 qi fu u le :( haha!! cyz ard!

8) anne: thou u doing hk sms pdts, got no link 2 wat i'm doing, thanks 4 oways peeping at me yea.. haha!!! if u never look at me, how u noe i was looking at u lehz? haha!!! thanks 4 helping out as much as u can when i needed help ^_^

9) wendy: thanks 4 helping me whenever i cover for shu fang.. sorry arh, oways never hear u call me de :P

10) yvonne: miss yap, i dun think i really noe u la.. only smile a few times only.. so yep... keep up your cheerful-ness thou

11) patricia: thou u look fierce and stern, thanks really a lot for helping us whenever ryan is not ard.. thanks really loads.. now you're not ard le, no 1 stand up 4 us le :(

12) xiao wei: we only got 2 noe each other when ryan is not ard bahz... haha but those were the more happy times rught, thou oso more stress la :P u oso not ard le.. a lot of things starting 2 cock up le haiz... miss you!

13) eileen: you very cute de... nose pink pink de! haha!!! anyways, nice joking ard with u! i will be back! haha!!!

14, 15 $16) valarie, joanne, audrey: erm, i dun think i noe u all very well bahz.. only noe lend u all my accounts 2 use.. haha!!! but its ok! if need me can call me de! haha!!! ^_^

17) min yee: erm, thanks 4 helping out when ryan not ard.. u let me laern a lot by oways asking me 2 settle things on my own.. thou kind of stressa dn stuffs, i still learnt a lot.. so yea, thanks!

18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23 & 24) regina, priscilla, jessy, felene, deborah, the 2 malay ladies: erm, i dun think got alot 2 do with u all bahz.. but thanks 4 oways chatting with me.. u ladies are actually the most whom say morning 2 me daily, the ones who oways 'da zhao hu' de... thanks!

25) dennis: big boss of securities.. erm.. i dunno u la... never tok 2 u de.. so ya...

26, 27 & 29) peggy, ee suan and jian zhong: i oso dunno u all well... only noe u all oways eat with fredrick... hope u all can cope with the work bahz!

30) karen: dunno u even more.. only tok a few times... but find u ok la.. quite cheerful.. dun be 2 stress out bahz...

31) agnes: gave us so many high-lighters... haha!! the face can oways change 2 so many expressions de.. haha!! continue 2 stay happy and cheerful!!! ^_^

other dept:
deposit: jia hui, sarah, cindy, ching ching, the-guy-who-oways-pass-me-ccd-but-i-dunno-your-name-de: erm, din woek much with u all.. everytime see u all oso juz for the OPCIS only de.. haha!!! everybody tc and dun go home 2 late bahz...

alex: u the only 1 whom we tok more 2 thanks 2 samantha and yi ru... so yea.. continue 2 look damm young!

yi ru, samantha, mun ling, dora: thanks gals for being our great fren! thou not much of a contact le, but miss u gals loads!!! those fun we had, those laughters we had... i really miss those :)

CSE and RMs: thanks 4 oways trying 2 bully me but failing 2 which cos i could oways shoot back or ryan or min yee will stick up 4 me.. i thanks u cos those 'bully' i get oways help me 2 learn more.. so yea, thanks!

IFP Global Support: of, i noe got 4 of u, but i thanks as a team st la.. thanks for oways 'supporting' us in our products :P

syvin: the only gal of IFP so thank u 1st 4 being the 1 who is most easy 2 ask 4 help, cos u're theo nly 1 who dun bully me :P thou now in battery road le... gonna miss u.. continue 2 stay pretty and dun let the guys bully u 2 much bahz ^_^

fredrick: erm.. should i say federick? thanks 4 oways making fun of me too much tat it actually hurt me.. but somehow, can't really get 2 angry everytime i see u... so yea... continue 2 eat triple servings per meal and get hungry very fast... thanks a lot 4 your help!!! thou oways ma fan u :P but we wun send u anymore template cos ryan say tat will make u lazy :P so yea, cya ard in kovan...

dennis sim: dunno where u disappear 2... but its ok.. thanks 4 oways making me laugh... those were hapy time.. and my eyes haf been small since young but i can see very well... thanks 4 making me very happy :) thank u 4 oso helping me get london things when i dunno wat 2 do, and helping me with some of my work when ryan was not ard...

linwei: thank u very much 4 your many help thou u're not handling them le... i never got scolded by u nor kena raise voice except once... yea.. thanks 4 oways coming chatting with me and trying 2 make me happy la... juz 4 me only right? haha!!! dun think 2 much, its only the confo :P but still, thanks very much 4 your help in many ways, like ya.. a lot la.. wun 4get de ^_^ cya ard in seng kang and raffles city!!! haha!!!

any others: erm, i think got a lot of u la.. like client admin, doris, the mailing room ppl etc... thanks 4 all the help u peeps haf given me.. it let me learn and grow a lot a lot...

2 all: i'll still be at level 3.. i'll be seated with joanna and chor suan.. so i think can still see u all bahz ^_^ see all of u ard!!! ^_^ and muz miss me!!!!

人的忍耐度是有极限的... 我已经超越我的极限了... 有些话说了会刺伤人心, 有些动作也会无意间伤到人心. 虽然你们觉得好玩好笑, 但是你们对我造成的伤害是无可是测量的. 今天, 在回家的路上, 我哭了. 眼泪不停的流下来. 我是可以让你们玩, 但请你们别忘了, 我也是人, 我也有感情, 我也会感到伤心难过, 心里也会感受到伤害... 玩笑开多了是会让人难过的... 更何况那些玩笑是拿我来开的, 闯着我来的. 虽然我不吭声, 并不代表我没事. 我非常难过. 希望你们懂得珍惜朋友...


all humans have their own limits to patience. i have already surpass my own limits... some spoken words may directly hurt a person, while some actions may un-intentionally hurt a person as well. to what you guys may seem as fun and funny, the hurt that you guys have inflected on me is beyond measure. on the way home today, i cried. my tears could not stop dropping. i am someone whom you guys can play with, but please bear in mind, that i'm also human, i also have feelings, i will also be feel hurt and sad, my heart will ache as well... too much jokes will hurt a person. what's more when the jokes are making fun of me, directing at me. even thou i remain silent, it does not mean that i'm alright. i'm really very sad. i hope that you guys will know the meaning of treasuring a friend...

i hope MOE Singapore if reading this:

My cousin is attending one of the schools in Ang Mo Kio area. A teacher recently asked him in front of the class if he is a Malay or Indian, and why does he have a Chinese name. I want to know why does a teacher have the rights to provoke a child. If the teacher wants to know about the child's background, why don't the teacher approach the parents? Does the teacher knows that by doing so in front of the class, he is hurting the child very much and giving the rest of the students in the class a chance to make fun of the boy? I would like a explanation for that. A child is sent to school for EDUCATION and not to be QUESTIONED by teachers about his background. Why did the teacher not approach the parents?

so what if the child has dark skin? there are so many people in singapore who speaks chinese despite their skin colour. the teacher simply have no rights!

i swear that i will scold the teacher if i know which is the teacher that did that to my cousin.

u hurted me... no more words...

ouched...



injured...




sadded...



cried...

thank u 4 letting me noe u, making me happy etc.. i think it the end of all things le bahz... at least with u la... hope u will be happy... and 1 day, i think, we might juz cross each other's path again...

alamak!!! wat i did was 2 protect myself in case u hit me again mahz! i'm not trying 2 do anything 2 u kz UNCLE!!! now the whole dept thinks dirty le la!!! bohoo!!!!!

can u tell me wat u r trying 2 do or tell me? i dun wanna be 2 happy u noe... its scary.. its not the 1st time this kind of things is happening ... i've been thru it and came out of it injured badly... i dun wan the same thing 2 happen again... its not juz u.. its uSssss...

2day, my eyes nearly poped out, i nearly puked blood! there was something tat i haf 2 call the treasury dept of my company... so i called them and the conversation went on like this:

hp: hi, can i speak 2 *fred pls?
guy no.1: mhm (the sound u make when u nod your head)
hp: oh, fred, i need your help. i need the sec-id for blah blah blha blah blah (hp starts 2 describe wat she wans. too long a description 2 type)
guy no. 1: mhm (many times throughout hp's describing the things she wans)
hp: boh ya, my boss oso ask u 2 send the report oso
guy no.1: ok
hp: ya.. thanks
guy no.1: ok, tats all?
hp :ya
guy no.1: ok, i tell u something, I'M NOT FRED!!!

at this point of time, hp,s eyes went huge!!! and she nearly puke blood

hp: ok, uncle *ah wei. then can i speak 2 fred?
uncle ah wei continues: so, haf u eaten?
hp: (stupidly still reply -_-) huh?? lunch u mean? lunch eat le la! now 5pm le lehz
uncle ah wei: so wat u eat? dun tell u eat bread kz...
hp: huh???!!!! erm.. erm.. is fred there? need his help la!
uncle ah wei: dun pass phone 2 him lehz *bleagh sound* y u call muz look 4 him cannot me?
hp: erm, u wan i can ask my boss speak 2 u...
uncle ah wei: ok ok... *wanted 2 continue 2 chat but hp fake fake start 2 tok 2 boss

guy no.1 finally pass phone 2 fred.

fred: yes?
hp: i'm han ping
fred: oh, hanping arh? ok. bye! dun wan help u *bleagh*
hp: eh.. dun like tat la.. i noe u very nice de...
fred: now then noe? so wat u wan?
hp: oh. i need your help... i need the sec-id for blah blah blha blah blah (hp starts 2 repeat wast she said earlier again)
after the say finish everything...
fred: ok.. i come out find u...

wa liao!! i wanted 2 kill myself sia!!! say the same long long thing twice, and then? they still come out...really really damm -_- la!!!

wt and zhi rui laugh like no body's business after tat i told them wat happened lor.. haha!!! wa liao.. i dunno whether 2 laugh or be angry lor -_-

*names haf been modified a bit 2 protect the ppl's identity :P

2day at work, gastric was wanting 2 kill me.. but i survived!!! haha!!! eating halfway thru lunch, my gastric started 2 act up... after swallowing 2 pills, things still turn right... and yet there were ppl making me laugh.. causing me even more pain la! i was really fighting hard 2 hold back my tears la... luckily ting read the medicine instructions and she said i muz CHEW the medicine, not SWALLOW! so i chew down another 2 more pills lor.. it did got better soon after... only 2 return juz b4 i wanna go home again..

sat went out 2 celebrate my birthday -_- haha!!! super belated but i'm very happy! ^_^ thank u very much 2 the gals!!! shan, ting, jie, boon, nee and aeng... received a bag and a bracelet, which i love both! will update the pics once i've uploaded them...

last fri, i received news tat i wun longer be with my department... a new perm gal will be taking over me... i cried... i'm really sad... all the frens i made, good collegues i made and stuff.. it MIGHT juz end there... no more ting 2 crap ard with me when i'm bored le :(


sometimes, i juz dunno wat the ppl at my workplace is thinking... wat are they trying 2 do... its weird sometimes...