今年的生日过得非常有意义，非常不一样。我很高兴！详细今晚我回来再说 ^_^
this year birthday had been different. i made dana to shifu! all of them! hehe! i can only say its the best ever present i give to myself! well, chun yi shifu, chun hui shifu, annie, debbie, francia, little annie and adeline oso made a marvellous card for me! and i got a little care bear and a new backpack! there was no celebration but i was out there doing good. as shifu say: and so passes your birthday in a different way... well, it has indeed been different. but more and more, i'm seeing it as a date only... i dun expect ppl 2 remember it anymore... but if they do and send their wishes, that's better than anything presents they can give ^_^
i was reading some archieve posts just now. till now, i wonder if i have the courage to mentioned your names here that i really fell for u back then? seriously, there were 2 of u... i tot i've 4gotten, but somehow, as i read, the memories came back... but i'll assure, its 95% sweet memories, 5% or less of sad memories... both of u have been extremely sweet to me back then. but at the same time, both of u broke my heart the worst, in different ways. as i saw into msn, both of u are in the same category tat i created, and at this point of time, both of u are online. the possibility of u guys reading this is extremely slim, seeing that i no longer talk 2 u. but i dun deny, i really do miss u.. if only, i could have the chance, i would like to see u once more, and tll u how i felt back then. i dun expect any return answer. but what good is there to tell u how i feel? for all i noe, u may juz laugh at me for my foolishness, as if any of u would have returned the feeling, its all juz wishful thinking on my part... but esp D, i would really like to know... what were u thinking back then? i noe its pointles to know now, seeing some decisions i've already made... but i would really like to know out of curiousity...
seeing that this is the end of my blog, can i mention the names finally? i think not... see, my courage fails me once more... maybe there can be some help from my dear frens? :P
若忘不了，那又何曾叫做放下呢？
ah no!!! i really need 2 4get and let go!!!!!!!!!
今天发生了很多事情。虽然只是一个下午，但我却经历了许多不同的感受。跟乙师的谈话让我有一种想哭的冲动。因为她的道歉，我说出了憋在心里许久的种种感受，也发现我其实受到许多不需要的冤枉。
今天，我也见证了缅甸佛教徒的诚心。他们实在比新加坡信徒虔诚多了。听到他们一起诵经，我不经意地起了鸡皮疙瘩。看到这么这么多的信徒到来，我感动了！连外头的梯级都坐满人，虽然看不到，但他们都非常诚恳地听开示。有时，我觉得，我们很多人其实都活在福中不知福。是时候我们好好地学习了！大家，珍惜现在所有的一切吧！
