i had a dream last night... i dunno whether 2 call it weird, strange or sweet :P main characters were me, seng and desmond! weird enough? then seng in dream was working in a shopping centre and i was out with my family and des was with us. then there was a lot of conversation between seng and me! then there was this period which i went 2 the ladies, then 3 guys entered the toilet and use it as well! nvm that, the toilet door lock was on the top of the door and i din noe how 2 lock it till the 3 guys, who were using the cubicle next 2 mine show me how 2 lock. weird? cos the toilet was so short! then when i was out, my hp was given 2 seng, who was unlocatable for a while. he asked me 2 lunch with him which i said ok, budden i ended up looking for him with des holding hands -_- seng sulked then in the end i had 2 apologise 2 des for using him, and his reply for being the part-time bf was : 不要紧，那感觉还蛮爽的，蛮不错的。he said this smiling kz!!! i was totally shock! and then we were at some super old bus interchange of the past -_- weird and sweet all mixed up. i'm sure those reading noes where the sweet parts are :D

oh freaky! i dreamt of seng!! he seem so real in the dream! i haven seen him for years liao!!

i dunno izzit i did something wrong 2 receive her 'this' attitude.. but shouldn't she be well-practiced and not show this kind of favourtism? or am i thinking too much? i oways feels she dun like me... not hate, but dun like... or izzit cos she has noe me long enough so she think its alright to protray true self? hmmm... i wonder... currently, i juz feeling weird, but well, i shall just noe and observe :D

有时，当你想找位朋友，或一个人出来陪你聊聊天时，但你又找不到任何人，那感觉真沮丧，就像现在的我，只能说‘咳’。

七月法会已结束。去年，我诵经。今年，我变成护法，帮助法会成功地举行。地藏忏时，不知何故，看着师父们带领着大众，大家一起虔诚地诵经时，我默默地掉了一些眼泪。蒙山时，听着云龙法师唱诵忏悔文时，我努力地让自己不哭，不知为什么，但那感觉就像我做错了千千万万的错事使的，眼泪又掉了下来。而aunty betsy 和师公教了我一个月半的十方，也走得非常成功。当时的我好紧张，手和脚都抖惨了！还好，只有我的妈妈察觉到我有发抖。我以为大家都会诵经，没时间看我。没想到，法会议结束，大家都来祝贺我时，我才发现，道场的大家都在看！就连纯乙师父都在看。我并不是不知道大家的眼睛都有望着我，因为，礼完纯乙师父后，我一转身，就能感觉到大众炉那有非常多双眼睛看着我，但奇怪的是，她们的眼神却带给我安全感。十方走的非常成功，我真的很高兴！
法会结束了，是时候我开始努力读书了！手上还有纯清师父要我做的照相簿，我一定会努力的！^_^