sometimes, 1 cannot play with fate seh... not say tat i'm playing with it la.. but there is this person at work whom i wanted 2 noe intially de.. as time goes by, i will meet this person at least twice daily.. and as more goes on, i'm toking and joking with this person so much more! it took me only ard a month or less 2 make this person tok 2 me naturally sia! my exec now noes everything.. thou she suspected things way b4 hand... now, this person is inclined 2wards me le.. this person will walk into the office and look 4 me 1st instead of my exec... when i enter the office, this person dunno 2 leave or 2 stay 2 tok 2 me.. but this person oways has 2 leave, cos my superiors are the and this person can't really tok 2 me.. haha!!! haiz.. wat 2 do next lehz?


meili told me: aperson is enough 2 be stupid once in life.. i haf been stupid twice... will this be a 3rd and 4th?

i'm making more and more and more frens each day at work! haha!!! and its so fun 'playing' with them! :P okies, its kind of like teasing each other la.. but its fun la.. and these ppl really make each other relax la... dunno how, they noe me but can't remember my name? but they oso like 2 play with me la.. haha!!!

description of frenship with some1:
day 1: tok 2 me, smile and teased me... laughed at me cos i did something stupid -_-
day 2: walked and bump into him when he come out of the life and when i'm going in.. i screamed a little cos i was shocked tat some1 will still walk out of the life when its going home time. found out some dark and dirty past which shocked me 2 the core...
day 3: he daoed me, i played hard, i smiled... he was damm shock! haha!!! he dunno wat 2 do but 2 continue 2 look at me -_- was at clocking out station behind me again, i ran up the slope up 2 my dad's car...
day 4:..... ?.......

description of frenship with no2.:
day dunno when onwards till 2day: play and tok loudly like nobody's business.. muahahaha!!!

description of frenship with no.3:
day1 : tok a little thru my supervisor.. joked a little
day 2: tok and lauged like nobody's business oready! haha!!!

dunny seah? haha!!!
anyways, dunno wat happened.. 2day was in a very very moody and black mood... somehow, near lunch time, there was a lump in my throat, like those when u wanna cry la... 1 uncle cheered me up bu giving me more of my fave food! haha!!! afternoon, joked and played ard a little... then i felt better... dunno la.. its a confusing day la...


i muz be more careful.. i dun wan anything 2 spark off any rumours at all...

work is ok so far... some ppl at work are juz making me go nervous.. argh!!! maybe sometimes, i should juz give ppl a chance yea? haha! i dunno y ppl tends not 2 be shy ard me and love 2 'bully' me seh.. haiz.. funny some ppl can be.. wanna find out more? call me la.. maybe u can help me solve my problems.. haha!!!

i oways tot tat only gals or females lie bout their age... little did i expect tat guys oso lie about their age!!! omg la... there is this guy at my current workplace, who is supposedly 12 years older than me... but one look at his face and u will noe he is ard my age de lor... weird right? but 2 wat i learnt, these soem ppl need 2 be of certain age then they can work de.. so i think they lied? or maybe it mightb e true.. juz tat they haf this baby face? i was so damm angry la.. my dad pick me up yesterday and saw the person who is supposed 2 be older than me.. so i asked my dad 2 guess how old he is.. my dad guessed tat he is the same age as me.. but i saw some files 2 show tat he is actually 12 yrs older than me! like.. wth man! but these few days managed 2 like.. communicate a bit bit with him? cos bo bian! some dept tat i haf 2 tok 2 or see almost everyday mahz.. so its ok.. haha!!! but tat dept all guys.. old 1 mind u! haha!!! well, more info? msn me bahz.. bye, ciaos!

ok.. i;m face with a damm difficult situation now.. my boss has asked me 2 extend my work, cos she's gonna hire a new HR exec, then wans me 2 stay there till she settles down.. which is like how long? dunno! wth! but i'm not gonna extend, and i told her tat... cos i wanna haf more working experience... so now? this women is kind of like, treating me kind of badl a.. giving me black face, not saying thanks for things she ask me 2 do, no apologising for things she did wrong etc la.. u get the picture la.. i mean, its not tat its very important manners but, sometimes, those words are magic words u noe... instead, all i get is a black afce.. damm sad la.. haiz... its now getting more and more sian working there.. i'm getting more and more sad... and i'm seeing more and more ppl leaving the world in front of my eyes.. i saw 1 on monday.. this uncle juz pass on in front of my eyes, with the doctors trying 2 save him.. i heard he is in very very critical condition now.. i dread the day when i haf 2 see the 1 i loves in these conditions... i had nightmares, i could not sleep, i cried.. working in a small hospital has advantage and disadvantages.. 1 disadvantage? see the ppl leave from the world right in front of your eyes, despite u working in an office.. i'm in HR, so i haf 2 walk ard.. its not a good thing :( 1 advantage? u really get 2 noe all sorts of ppl.. from weirdos 2 good ppl and funny ppl.. and good looking ppl =X oppsie :P well. only 1 or 2 better looking 1s la, no good lookings de... so sad, plus they r not local -_- nvm... i more month and i'm out of there.. REJOICE!!!

i have been thinking these past few nights.. more than 30 nights... can a person like 2 ppl at one go? i mean, for example, can u like guy A and guy B at the same time? if u like guy A only, then how do u explain the weird feeling u haf when u r with guy B? if u like guy B, the how do you explain the weird feeling u haf when u r with guy A? i haf been thinking bout the past, i dunno y but i juz kept recalling things from the past.. then i asked myself this question: did i really liked tat some1? or was he only a substitue? i really dunno, and i'm feeling so confused tat i start 2 haf weird dreams! after discussing with shan, then i found an answer.. i will only end these confusion by getting answer from the ppl involved... but will i ever do tat? i dun think i will.. i mean, i'm like not toking 2 them much these days le, how the hell am i suppose 2 start a topic with them? and if i successfully start a topic, how the hell am i supposed 2 ask them the questions? and i'm oso afraid of their answers! i noe, these are stupid things, but they haf made me lose sleep and lost much tears... and come 2 think of it, these ppl r the main ppl who spoil my b-day every year! the tend 2 spoil my mood on my day itself! haiz... its all called fate...

anyways, i had a dream... the dream was odd... i was out with 3 other gals on board a curise via invitation... then we were invited 2 this ball on board the cruise by a rich gal.. all the 4 of us were reluctant 2 go for theb all, but at the same time, some1 told us 2 attend the ball cos there were some other ppl waiting for us and were expacting us.. and there were 4 guys there, meant for each of the gal... the gals apperantly kind of ignored the guys, thou we noe they were meant for each of us in our heart la.. i even saw the guy 4 me in my dream.. but the strange thing is, once i woke up, i haf no recollection of how the guy looks like, i haf no idea who were the 4 gals with me! one of them had a 'ting' in the name de.. but i'm not sure if its wei ting thou.. haha! the other 2 gals? i dun even noe their name nor how they looked like! neither can i remember the 4 guys, thou the guy meant 4 me appeard right in front of me in my dream! is this wat the called 'the dream guy'? coem 2 think of it now, did the dream happen on a cruise? or was it a very grand place? i really can't remember! i have not been having dreams for a very long time now.. but recently, i keep having odd dreams! what do they mean? i never noe...


job is fun. i haf been told 2 extend which i rejected cos of some reason. new ppl r gonna come in soon, i better adapt again... got my 1st pay, which is damm little -_-