2day is a fruitful day!!!!!! i'm so happy! and i feel a great sense of accomplishment! ^_^ since moreing 7plus, i spent more than 12 hours at PKFT! cleaning up the doors, windows, rooms, shrine shelfs, buddha statues, buddha images, buddha scripts, sanga books, floor etc etc! really feel soo sooo happy to see everything so clean!!! well, have to thank CHSF for giving me the chance to accumulate these merits ^_^ and well, bcos of ms debbie, now CYSF oso noes who i am le. haha!!! it was an akward moment for me -_- but yea, i'm glad :) DDSH joked with me, cleaned up shi gong's room, annie's door etc. well, its a different feeling altogether ^_^ stayed till nearly 8pm then left. CHSF made for us orange milkshake! it was nice!!! ^_^ ok, i'm really really happy! ^_^ it made me 4got all my troubles for the day too ^_^ well, till school again :)

so i'm going back for sat meditation, as well as CYSF wed classes ^_^

recently, i juz realise that i really really missed 'table' loads... its juz sort of come suddenly and i have no idea why!!! i dunno why but i juz dun really like the feeling of missing someone. i'm angry with myself. why can't i juz let it go?! i oways thought that i have let it go and not let it affect me le... but i guess i'm wrong... will there be another chance for me to see you once again? will there be a chance when you can explain to me why did u juz left me without any explanation, without a word? i'm juz angry with myself...

and today, unlucky me... i saw a bustard, who once hurt me so so so badly in the past. i saw him 2day, and i dunno y, i juz started crying! i'm scared of losing my frens once again! he made me lose my frens once before, he tarnished my name once before, to loads of people whom i do not know. i really dun wish 2 see him in school... he's there and so is she... i juz hope that they wun hurt me any further. my head hung low the whole time when i was crossing the plaza, for fear of them or their frens, who might spot me, and then the scariest thing, for fear that history will once again repeat itself, and i'll lose everyone dear to me in school... i'll juz pretend i do not know you, and u did not exist in my life at all...