AHHHHH CHOOO!!!! omg.. i keep sneezing... this is the result of me bathing 2 late la... but no choice la.. hu ask me wanna watch TV, dun wan 2 bake the cake for CaT... bake le then bath, kena cold lor... haha!!! finally done with NLS... 1 got 8/10, another 6/10.. kns sia... haiz... gonna sleep soon le... tmr stay in school 2 do some FI before coming home... cos when i come home i wun do homework de... haha!!! so muz force myself 2 do in school lor... haiz..


i was juz thinking... will some1 be really there for me when i need some1? yes.. i noe got 1 very very very good fren hu will be there... but i dun oways wanna trouble her... hu else will be there? and can i juz trust any1?

2 wat i noe, 2night had a total of 4 ppl inter-link sadness... haiz.. sian sia.. budden i think got 3 of us ok le.. cos we all laugh till siao le.. haha!!! so here goes... a big big THANKS for making me a bit less stress and happier bahz... haha!!! omg.. i am going sooooo high le.. i scared i can't sleep later sia! omg!!! haha...

2day went for S2006 training in school.. damm sian de la... haha.. got all guys from mindef come down plus 2/3 ladies oso... hmm most of us doze off at least once... after tat went opposite school 2 eat some pancake thingy with wei ting... after tat went 2 watch movie, the lake house at TM with her and 'ah jie'... then watch till me and wei ting both nearly doze off la... haha!!! then after tat went home le lor... kinda scared on the way home cos the coffee shop there like gonna haf a gang fight le, then dare not walk by coffee shop front cos got drunk uncles... so tok on the phone 2 calm myself down lor... hmmm.. got home, bath, gonna sleep le... tmr haf 2 wake at 8 2 meet shanlyn at 9 at hougang interchange 2 buy things for the CaT prac we gonna do tmr.. sian.. i really need some rest and sleep.. cos my fever like coming up le.. sian...


some ppl can be 'foolish' when it comes 2 liking some1... i understand how u feel cos u went thru b4 as well... :)

me and my frens seem 2 be contacted with the laughing disease... u noe y? cos the past 2 days we haf been laughing and laughing none stop!!! haha!!! u should haf seen us in the break durin FI and CAT de lec... me and nee laugh till dunno like wat sia... till they all question mark looks... then in FI, boon and sis 2 laugh till me and shan do the 'deow' signal and write at the same time lor... haha!!! then after tat dunno y all juz kept laughing la! haha!!! then 2day morning in FPQA lab we all laugh till teacher oso question mark look lor... its so damm good 2 laugh sia.. it can really make 1 4get all troubles TEMPORARILY ..( is tat how is spelt? anywae i failed spelling de so ya.. haha!!!) omg.. labs can be so fun sia... budden i think tmr in CaT lab cannot laugh or else later miss choo mark us down jiu die le... FI i think slack a bit bahz.. so i think its still ok.. haha!!! come on everybody, lets LAUGH!!! it does not matter how u laugh but juz laugh!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA

anyway 2day in FPQA lab i think halfway thru got something wrong make quite a few of us worried... cos we really dunno wat is wrong.. thou i think me and alesia know le bahz... haha!!!

hmm.. 2day had class at 8am.. last night only slept at 2.30am cos was studying.. haha... woke up at 6, bath le then gave some1 morning call then jiu left for school... nothing much juz tta NLS lab was a bit boring la... then after tat FPQA de sharing session... was ok la... then after tat went for tanya chua de concert in TP... was quite nice, thou we all din noe how 2 sing cos we weren't really her fans la... then after tat pei wei ting walk 2 the sports complex then jiu go home le lor... kind of a scary trip back home... was juz scary la.. dunno how 2 explain lor... hmm i feel very tired, oso dunno y lor... dun really haf anymood 2 tok... mmm wait 4 my hair 2 dry le i wanna go sleep le.. cannot tahan sia.. haiz.. juz now at the bus stop i was tellling shu jie how i was feeling.. cos i very scared there will be misunderstandings... budden as long as the old 1 exist, i wun be able 2 find a new one la.... so ya.. no need 2 think anymore le...
i wanna cry!!! i dunno y.. haha!!! i am hurt by tat person de reply... and i am hurt by the gal de reactions 2wards me... she was damm cold 2wards me la.. but, 4get it la... even her bez fren oso say so le...
think of a person, for girls think of a guy EACH, for guys, think of a GIRL each, for the each activity:
1) plucking fruits
2) fishing
3) chopping woods
4) having camp

well.. they each represent something...
1) the person who will be your bez fren but never your lover
2) the person whom u will share everything to, the person who will understand u
3) the person is the bez partner for the rest of your life
4) the person whom u wanna 'have something done' with


i conclude tat this test is 100% damm damm damm so damm not accurate.. haha!!! was laughing away when i heard the analysis...

2day is shanlyn de birthday.. so celebrated 4 her lor.. yesterday went sengkang library tat time oso bought the cake.. wasted a bit time on travelling la.. cos accompany some1 mahz... but lucky we accompany, cos then he help.. haha!!! then bought the cake from 4-leaves, hmm walked back 2 the bus stop to meet alex to pass him the cake. he help us bring home then this morning help us bring to school again... haha!!! thanks man! feel a bit bad la.. cos he din wanna accept anything from us... so ya... so 2day cut cake eat lor.. damm sweet.. lucky i took the smallest piece.. :p haha!!! now gotta go study FC.. hopefully i wun fall asleep bahz.. and the other person hu i think might be reading this dun sleep arh.. later i call and check on u then u noe arhz.. haha!!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN AKA xiao bai aka ah pek
:P

omg!!! i juz woke up from a nap and i haf not done anything lehz... heng tmr no quiz or wat worz... or else i die le... haha!!! haiz... then feverish feverish lehz.. not a good feeling sia.. din haf my dinner or wat.. later at 12 i will sleep again.. tmr morning need 2 wake damm early la...

O.o new fren found worz! haha!!! i am now in school.. so ealry 2 do FPQA la... very tired... was suppose 2 study NLS in bus on the way 2 school de... budden fell asleep on the bus lor.. and sleep all the way... hmmm i am prepared 2 fail le la... *YAWNS* i dunno how 2 stay awake lateer... lucky i am not taking ApFS, so got 4 hours 2 study later worz.. haha!!! ok.. i tired till i become kuku le... keep haha-ing liao lar... and i oso very happy cos brods is out of the superband le.. my fav 4 band all in top 4.. very happy.. hope lucify or mi lu bing wins cos well... soul can dance but the superband impression i really wans is those which can play instrments de like u noe la.. muz haf some musical instuments de la... J3 thou they play instruments.. but juz not those 'bandy' type lehz... those like lucify or mi lu bing is those kind of bands tat i like bahz.. haha!!! kk.. boo liao le... wanna go class lo!!!

went 2 cut my hair lo!!! budden i din dye.. cos i heard tat 4 S2006 cannot dye... haiz.. sian arh! nvm.. after tta then go dye again.. haha!!! hmm went CP buy lunch, pei nee eat then came home... was home alone... but since so tired, i went 2 sleep till my mum came back and she woke me up... dinner din eat much cos din noe how 2 eat the dunno wat food... hmm after tat ironed clothes, watch tv... and i think a while later i gonna sleep le.. found a website quite challenging.. give it a try:
http://intelligence-test.net/part1/



a am sadded :'(

wohoo!!! me and alesia became flying women this morning!!! haha.. we board bus 27... when the bus was leaving the interchange, it went by a hump, which caused the both of us, hu juz sat down, 2 fly off our seat! haha... both of us lor! then after it passed by jon's house, there appear 2 be a hump or something like tat down there and we flew off our seats again.. shiok sia... pain!!! haha!!! in scholl everything was as usual, nothing much... and i realised that i looked alike more 2 guys than 2 gals man! omg.. madness!!! i look like SW, and 2day i realise tat ppl in TP Table tennis say i look like 1 of their team members la!!! aiyoh... y guy look like me sia... :P haha!!!
i haf been acting all along... i haf 2, so tat u will not be hurt, but only i will be hurt... T_T :'( do u realise tat i am actually very very hurt? 4get it.. i dun think u will even give a damm of how i am feeling...

i came home 2day and i asked myself... if 1 day i am gone from earth, will i be missed? who will miss me? i really really would like 2 find out u noe... sadness

stabilisers r very inportant in food substances u noe? but it does not stop me from hating them!!! argh!!! food science is fun... but its oso damm stressing and difficult!!! haiz.. dun wish 2 tok so much.. better get back 2 my report le... sian argh!!!

there is something seriously wrong with me... i was very quiet 2day... dunno y.. but i juz din haf the mood 2 tok 2 any1... i left school without telling any1, i din ask if we were gonna haf lunch 2gether or anything... i dunno y but i juz feel 'ouched' la... :'( hopefully i will be better tmr... sorry peeps.. i juz left without telling any1... but i really juz dun haf the mood 2 tok or anything... i went to my cousin's place to play with her baby girl... i was happy when i was at her house.. budden when i came home, i started 2 feel a bit back 2 my sad self again... then now, there is a lump in my throat which makes me wanna cry but i am juz fighting everything back, and forcing myself not 2 cry... and i really dunno the reason y, i think... even if i do, i wun wanna aamit it...

she juz learnt how 2 flip, with help from her mum.. haha!!!


































she is learning how 2 sit.. cute?

givne by cadet during ROD
taken and done in 2002

ROD 2004.. nice? done by cadets oso

Presents, food, drink, letter from cadets
us after the NDP 2004... i miss everything!!!
ROD 2004.. or tuen 2 ROD... sad sad :(

platoon outing to pizza hut

Racial Harmony day 2006

Graduation dinner 2004

shit... i can't help but haf a damm bad feeling... haiz.. i oso dunno y but it makes me feel scared... haiz.. i muz stop myfelf 2 haf these feelings sia... cos they oways freak me out cos most of time they were accurate... how how how???!!!
to my grp members: relax, its not abt scholl work de bad feeling... haha :)

damm tired 2day.. morning woke up early to go tample 2 pray...ran 3 tamples... then after tat rush home 2 haf munch, then went campass point 2 buy stuffs for baking the CaT tech de cakes... went home, slpet a while cos wanna stay up 2 watch soccer... then woke up, had dinner then jiu bake the cakes lor... both r ok la... but i think i will go with the chocolate de... later gonna watch some VCD and oso iron clothes and watch soccer!!! haha...



y make a promise tat u can't keep? do u noe tat it hurts me even more? do u noe how hard i cried when i found out things tat is against our promise? do u noe how hurt i am? i trusted u... yet this is wat i get in return... i dun think i will ever trust u with anything anymore... i will only tok 2 u when necessary.. if not, i will try as much as possible 2 distance myself from u... sorry 2 say tat, but its really too ouched...

i was looking at one of my juniors from Cedar NCC.. the pictures speaks loads... i admit, i miss NCC... how i wish i was in those unforms, marching again... in the No.1, marching proudly at the GOH for NDP in cedar, or wearing those number 4, taking part in the shooting competition year after year, or in the No.3 unfirm, looking ever so smart... the ROD, CO night, camps, trainings, somehow, they wil never leave my memories... Alpha 01, Bravo 02, Charlie 03 and Delta 04, such wonderful memories... all the things we went thru 2gether... conflicts oways brought us closer 2gether, erm.. somehow bahz... how i wish i was once more in Cedar, be it NCC or not... i think i really miss everything there... Classes 1N, 2 N, and esp 3S and 4S... aiyah! i juz really miss NCC all of a sudden la.. thou there were lots of tough times, scoldings, being tekaned, punishment, harsh words and stuffs, but looking back, they r wat make up part of my life... i remembered the 100 sit-ups we did at a go in sec 1... the punishments we received in sec 2 during shoting competiton trainings, the damm harsh push-ups we had 2 do on the damm hot road during a hot mornin during saturday trainings.. doing pumping till our knees bled, running till we get cramps and aches, marching under the hot sun, cheering one and other on, cheering as we run, the circuit trainings, the water parades, the talks, the fun and the everything... the times when we won the shooting competition, the part A camp where we cadets from Cedar were laughed at and our spesialist stood up 4 us... the many many moments we had...
rank is what we wear, respect is what we earn. united as one, together we stand

2day had 6 hours of lab again... food was quite nice.. and the chocolate milk done during FI made every1 feel like drinking milo... haha!!! CaT made us stink during FI with the onion smell and cheese smell... haha!!! came home, wash clothes and nap.. kind of sick.. these few days haf been coughing and sneezing... 2day came home tat time had a slight fever and felt kind of giddy de... tmr going over 2 my cousin's house 2 play with her baby after school, which i think will end at ard 2? hmmm.. kind of lazy 2 go sia.. :P shall see how things r tmr bahz.. muahaha!!! tried...



i am so happy 2night... hmm... i think cos i dunno y... haha!!!

i dun think i wanna watch the world cup anymore... the countries tat i support r all out le... so sad la... :( now my injured hand is damm damm damm painful.. i wonder will it be ok soon? cos its really damm pain la
juz now was watching guardian angel... thou story a bit the very messy, but very touching... and i watched till i got tear a bit la.. haha.. a phrase i really like: i not only want to be your guarian angel, i also want to be there with you for the rest of my life. i am always a head turn away. just turn your head around and you will always see me there.


i dunno y but when watching the show, flashes of ( blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah) come into my mind again... how i wish... i wun be so sad... but i juz can't seem 2 cheer myself up... juz put up a fake front bahz... haiz...

yeah!!! its all over for NLS consultation le!!! and so damm lucky tat she was in a good mood sia... thou her face black black, but she din really shoot us lehz.. juz asked a bit of questions nia... heng arh! haha!!! and she oso din put a lot of crosses and circles on our paper... hmm then after tat lunch ate at ITAS lor... me and nee sat there for like near 2 hours la... then after FI had my own FC de tutoring... my tutor is very serious de worz! which is good la... so tat i can learn mahz... haha!!! thanks dorrain!!! then stay in school till ard 5.30 2 do research in library cos we got our FPQA part 2 le!!! can die sia.. it seem so much more difficult lehz... haiz... hmm then 2day went NLB with nee and aeng 2 do research for CaT... morning over slept :P O.o!!! and ITAS de chocolate cake something wrong de!!! me and nee ate le both stomach ache!!! haha!!! anyway... i damm sian sia!!! my hand oso damm pain cos i think SOME1 accidently hit against it lahz... but nvm, shall go 2 the doc again lor...
since election is here, and i haf decided not 2 run, i shall promote ppl.. muahahaha!!! yes so listen up! ppl in ASc, pls vote for: Jue Xiu, Zhi Wei, Azuan, Grace, Bendy, Michael, Keng Hwa, Deborrah and Sin Ee TPSU de pls vote for: Yi Jia, Soon Poh and Xinyu. ya... tat is all bahz.. i think hueva reading this and does not see your name, make full use of the tag board 2 promote yourself bahz... and yes... to tat mr uncle, i dun get my vcd=no votes from me arhz! muahahaha!!!!!