yeah!!! 2day bought my new shoes le... along with sock la, hp chain la... hehe... weekend then i come and put up the photo la... tmr wanna study for friday de maths quiz, then friday haf 2 stay in school till aound 8... then sat haf 2 go 2 auditorium 1 from 9-12... then 12.30 onwards haf i-guides till 6... then i-guides will haf debrief... so lets say till 6.30? then i haf 2 take cab 2 rush down 2 my cousins de graduation... wah... i haf 2 rush like mad la... and by the looks of it, sat i no need 2 eat le... cos i-guide, me being a sub-com ppl haf 2 reach early... so lunch might not haf time... then after i-guides haf 2 rush down 2 the ceremony... oso no need 2 eat dinner le lor... i siao liao la... i shall see how then la...

2day i dunno wat happen... in school ate something at around 2.30pm... then the rest of the day din eat le... then dunno y i wanna puke! eat little bit things oso will puke la... lie down, sleep, put oil.... everything oso no use la... i dunno y lor... maybe i am going 2 fall sick le ba... cos my voice a bit the going 2 be gone, fever like catching up on me... my eyes are so watery these days... and i drank a can of non-cold 7-up juz now... cos a lot of ppl tell me tat 7-up can make u feel better... it did last time... but 2day din help at all... i am prepared 2 be sick after this sat... haha....

2day so damm tired... woke at 5.30, go 2 school... was sleeping for most of the lessons la... i am truly super tired... 2night sleeping early... hmm... tmr got BNF test, friday haf maths... haiz... dun think i can do well la... with my current...erm... body state...
2day called the ppl on the namelist for group 3 for i-guides... so far only confirm 8 coming lor... but still got some 2 be confirmed and some cannot contact de...then... called most of them during my lunch break... haha... and some ppl say i sound so different when i am calling on the phone, very gentle, very not me... haha... yes i noe... i am a very siao person, but those ppl over the phone dunno hu i am mah... so of course i haf 2 be gentle la... hehe... ok... i am crapping... honestly, i very confused leh... i dunno wat is my role lor... haha... but its ok... do wat i am given la... haha... ya.. tat is me... kind de... ppl ask me do wat i do wat lor... so nice right? haha... ok... i noe i am a bit the siao 2day (since when haf i not?) but the thing is tat i got a reason de... hehe... occurred during and after lunch... 1st, hui nee shocked me, then when i came out of the girls' toilet i was shocked again... haha... but its ok la... at least kept me happy? erm... but dunno y din keep me awake lehz... so sianz la... stupid UIR... wasted my time at the lecture... no 1 was listening 2 her lor... ppl were either sleeping, smsing or juz plain drawing on the lecture notes... LIKE ME!!! haha... went home at 7... got a lift from alesia... reached home at 7.35... then eat dinner, tok a bit on msn, took a nap, wake up, bath, study BNF... then now i am going back 2 sleep again... haha... yes... i am super tired... i need 2 rest or i will be sick very soon le... haiz....

2day i dunno wat happen 2 me... morning wake up jiu feel moody le... tears juz keep running out of my eyes la... oso dunno y i feel so sad... is it bcos of something which i cannot say here in case some1 i reading? i told hui nee at the eng block while waiting for jap lecture... we were taking zi lian pics mah... i told her tat i can't smile... i dunno wat is wrong but i juz cannot smile... wat i did not say is tat... 2day i laugh a lot, cos i dun wan 2 let peeps see i not in good mood... actually i was tearing la... and no, it is not my eyes sensitive... till now, i still dunno way is wrong with me 2day... i hope tat tmr will be a great day 4 me...
i dunno y... but i haf this fear in my heart... i am scared tat if i continue 2 feel so sad, dpression will come back 2 me... i really dun wish 2 suffer again... any1 reading this, pls juz make me be happy again can? pls!!! juz do wateva 2 make me happy la... thanks loads

last night slept at 1.30am... was toking on MSN... if u r reading this, hope u r not as stressed le... relax a but more la... can de la... dun think 2 much le...
then this morning i woke at 9... washed my dad de cab... come home and do FC de log book lor... do till i so sian la... nap a bit in the afternoon... then woke up 2 complete the log book... finished it at arounf 7.20pm... then watched TV lo... no la... actually more of coming online... 2 look 4 ppl 2 tok la... but in the end oso no 1 tok... so sianz... so no 1 tok 2 me, i come here 2 blog lor... i din go for my platoon de chalet... missed it totally... cos sat i was really damm tired le... so din wan 2 go... 2day was 2 lazy 2 go le... so ya... but actually got another resaon la... but i wun say it here... in case any1 of my platoon mates is reading... hmm... actually 2day oso nothing much la.. was toking juz now 2 puiting 2 tell her how i feel... which makes me feel so much better now... THANKS GIRL!!! but remeber 2 keep 2 yourself wat i told u hor... hehe... yes yes... i noe i am being naggy here... having told u how many times le...haha...
my eyelids feel so heavy now... i feel so sleepy but dunno y i cannot get 2 sleep... haiz... tmr got school again... sianz la... tmr haf FC and JAP... honestly.. i am actually looking more forward 2 JAP than FC lor... at least its not as sian as FC, thou its oso a very sian lecture... wat am i toking abt... nvm.... my brain is no longer functioning properly le... which means its really time for me 2 sleep le... thou its still early... but... haiz... feel so sian la!!!

2day went 2 school for i-guides... reach school around 8.25 with shanlyn... then wait 4 the rest 2 come... then after tat went 2 gather lo... then i am station master mah... but jia wen was allocated 2 a place alone... so i ex-change with her lor... so in the end instead of the 'murder' station, i went to 'mimic' station.... she and meili then i alone... but its ok la... then, angel split us 2 join the FA de group... me kena group 3 with ah seng... and then later linda came 2 join us... haha... then we ask those i-guides 2 tok and cheer, but like no 1 did la... then after tat me and linda sing the 'friend' song till we wanna die lor... cos no 1 singing mah... erm... ok... at 1st only the 2 of us in the group noe how 2 sing la... then 2wards the end almost evey1 sing le lor... well... at least all the FAs did la... cos we merge with group 12 mahz... so... ya... can tell the i-guides were quite bored la...oh yes... the lunch SUCKS!!! haha... not blaming any1 but yes... the lunch is horrible... then after tat games start lor... me went all the way 2 the swimming complex there... then after tat, for 1 hour 35 mins, no 1 came 2 my station la... i think cos of some mis-communication la... then after tat the groups started 2 come... but oso its was my group which came 1st la... then after tat... rain BIG BIG!!! then games cancelled mah... wa kao eh... my station a bit the no sheltered way back lor... its actually got de la.. but then cos the TCC under construction, so like... ya... but in the end made it back la... but oso a bit the cos i called angel then i got back lor... sianz... then got back, join back my group, then after tat cheer cheer, then 'passed the guys' from 1 end 2 another... actually is every1 should be involved la... but in the end left the guys playing la... haha... then after tat mass dance, chicky dane, then TP school song... wah... me and wei ting play until like dunno wat lor... juz anyhow mix around and make fren la... then after tat had debrief... erm... honestly la... cos i am a more emotional person ma... then heard some parts actually got a bit 'touching' la... ya... then went home at 6.30, reach home around 7.30, bath, then ate dinner... then watched PSC nite 2 see derrick la... then after here i am blogging... wan 2 slp le...

2DAY I KENA ELECTIRC SHOCK!!! erm.. via the eyes la... OMG!!! so good looking larhs... haha... almost new eveything lor... haha... aiyoh... the image still in my head de lehs... hmm... then evening time went for i-guides de training... ok la... quite fun la... my group very haf mo qi! haha... so good lor... tat angel a bit the cannot tahan us la... haha... hmm.... training ended around 9.15 like tat... i keep pestering shanlyn they all 2 hurry... cos i dun wan 2 go home late... scared scared... haha... then, on bus 8 met the 'lame guy'... then come home le lor... now updating pics 2 my computer... HUI NEE! if u wan the pics u better tag argh! or else i dunno if u wan or not hor... haha... tmr haf 2 reach school by 8.30... haiz... but should be a fun day la... with lunch from jack's place!!! yeah!!!

wah... 2day so shoik man... haha... 2day is the 2nd time i shocked the guys of our class... and guys, if u r all reading this, let me tell u tat its is still not the ' fiercest' me... anyway... tat damm ass said something tat annoyed me la... so much so 2 the extent tat i wan 2 slap him... lucky there got teacher, or i would have done it HARD! pls lor, if i cannot be trusted, then where would u get your notes for Semester 1? how would u haf passed? and i am always the 1 looking for u 2 hand u the notes lor... did u ever bothered 2 come and look 4 me, u bloody idoit?! sorry for all these unpleasent words... but i am juz 2 frustrated la... 2 the other 2 guys hu r not involved, i am actually not angry with u 2 la... its juz tat idoit tat i am angry about... BUT PLEASE TELL ME NEXT TIME TAT U WILL BE PRINTING OUT THE NOTES!!! B4 U ALL PRINT, CALL AND TELL ME!!! CALL! CALL!!!!!!! DUN SMS!!!!!

wah... i really feel punching tat iodit lor...ARGH!!!! he jolly well not let me see him tmr... or else... good luck 2 him le... i yelled at him and the whole level juz quiten down and stare at us lor... but do i care? i don't! y do i haf him as my classmate? my god... the more i think the more angry i get... some1 pls calm me down... haiz...

tmr got B Mic test... hopefully i can do well ba... looking 4ward 2 tmr in any means thou... erm... maybe i can see wat i wan 2 see ba... should be able 2 la.... since monday adn wed got le.... fri should oso haf la... muahahaha... at least something 2 cheer me up right? haiz... study lo!!!

2day... so tired la... sian... school started at 9.00am... had FC quiz at 11... gone case..i think... maybe not.... aiyah... dunno la... its over anyway... then after tat 1pm onwards was tut for maths, FC and B Mic... for maths and FC i felt super energetic.... haha cos erm... ya... hehe... i was staring into something for more than a full 10 mins la... hehe... so happy... i feel as if i got break some curse like tat... haha.... then during FC, the teacher mentioned something about fish and fishy smell... then somehow, almost the whole class laughed... the teacher was like having question marks on her face la... haha... erm... i think most of them in the class noe wat happen le la... then B Mic, i start 2 feel tired la... then was like falling asleep lor... but in the end woke up and concentrated on tut... i oready promised myself and some1 else tat this sem, i will not haf failures... instead, i will get As... erm... i hope? but i will work hard de! then around 4.45 went got GL de interview... should be ok la... 6 pm went for i-guides... till around 8.15pm... auite ok la... but now i super tired... wanna sleep le... haiz... so tired... SLP LO!!!



thanks so much 2 hui nee.... hehe... for u now wat la... erm ya... ok... thanks 2 goey aeng oso on monday... and 2 jia wen for holding the door 2day... muahahahaha....

i am suppose 2 be studying for my FC quiz tmr yet here i am blogging... and i still haf my Maths-2 tut 2 do, FC tut 2 do and i haf done none... great... 2night no need 2 slp le lor... how great.. AND I AM SICK LE!!! sian argh! everyday study study... lessons r getting no where easier... and its only getting more and more boring... take 2day, i slept for most of BNF lor... but lucky the teacher din teach much... haha...cannot le... i muz pay attention le... or else my term test and exams die le... and i oready promise myself tat i muz do well lehs... and i oso prmised some1 else oso la... so I MUZ WORK HARD!!! haiz.... go do hw le lahs... SIAN ARGH!!!

2day afternoon, i was in a happy mood... but while i am typing this, i can't help but feel sad... i think i know y la... well, some other peeps oso noe y la... but i shall not mention here... i was rather speechless at wat i saw when i sat down in front of my computer... something was on the screen... but earlier on, some1 sent me a message, which sort of 'cheered me up'? but thinking back, i think its a bit of no use le... i mean... i appreciate it la... it really cheer me up... but i dun think i will be able 2 see wat is in the message la... cos like by then, i think it will be rather obvious... and i hope tat things can remain this way ba... but anyway, BIG THANKS 2 THE 2 GIRLS!!! u noe hu u r la... but if 1 of u dunno, then shanlyn, u help me tell her la... hehe

i think more and more ppl noe tat i put up a mask when i am in school... basically, i am laughing like mad, behaving like a siao person... but now they noe tat i am not actually a very happy person... deep inside, i oways feel sad... at home, i am not siao or anything... juz rather quiet and kept 2 my own... for meal times, i am oways the last 2 sit down, the 1st 2 leave... i cannot take wat will come if i sit any longer... oways make me end up crying...

ppl hu r reading this, when u r in school, pls do not make me take off my mask...erm... ya... i dunno how 2 phrase it la...juz let me continue 2 be siao... good for me and good for u all oso... haha... i can promise tat u peeps will not be able 2 see the sad side of me... u will never see my cry... even if i do, i will hide.... and till then, try looking for me... i noe some ppl oso do not noe abt this mask tat i put on la... SO PLS DO NOT GO AND ASK ME OR OTHER PEOPLE WHO KNOW!!! i do not wish 2 tell u means i do not wish 2 tell u... if i want 2 tell i... i naturally will... so pls do not ask... THANK U VERY MUCH!!! i do not wish 2 say any unpleasent words... so pls dun be a ****** and go and ask...at the max, u can ask me... MAXIMUM!!!

and erm... for those peeps hu noe... juz keep it 2 yourself.. i will appreciate it very much... thanks!

something is wrong with me... i eat oso wanna puke, drink plain water oso... haiz...

2day went for the i-guides de briefing... took quite some time... then left school only around 7.30pm... took a cab home cos my gastric pain... so pain tat i squat down on the floor while waiting... reached home... sat on the stairs for at least 5 mins b4 going home... really 2 pain le... then come home, rest a while, bathed... then i puked... dunno y thou... then till now my gastric still super pain... but i muz still thank shu jie, jia wen and shanlyn for accompanying me while waiting for the cab... very touched nes... haha... thank you...

2day oso watched harry potter and the globet of fire... was rather disappointed la... the show not as good as the 1st three of the series... then this 1 only a bit funny, a bit thrilling... oso not many touching parts... but 2wards the end, when harry brought cederic de body back, i got drop a tear la... but like wan 2 cry le jump 2 next scene le... so din cry lor... sian la... the show... then after tat went back school le... then no more le...

i realise tat my blogs r getting longer... erm... nvm...
2day school from 8am till 7pm... but din go for the 6-7 UIR lecture... no 1 wanted 2 go... so din go lor... hm... 2day, nothing much happen la... i din go with alesia they all for lunch, where they saw........... ya... so not fated la... haha... but its ok, i guess... i juz feel like giving up anyway... depends... its juz tat its not very easy for me 2 4get lehz... dunno y juz keep thinking of it... haiz... stupid me la...
so sleepy now... but haf 2 do FC and Maths de tutorial de homework le... SIAN!!!

life can be so boring... esp without ..........., ................., ...........

2day is such a happy day!!! thou my mood was dampen by a view when i 1st step into school... but something happened later tat made me cheer up... hehes
met alesia at the bread shop at hougang mall there at 10am, bought waffles then took 72 2 school... planning 2 take waffle as lunch... halfway 2 school, the bus broke down... but heng heng a 72 came shortly... go school, meet the rest, ate at ITAS canteen... me and alesia bought 6 piece nuggets 2 share along with our waffle... then when we 1st step into AS school, saw some1 whom... well, dun really cheer me up la... then head on 2 the canteen... the 1st person we saw? hehe... ' bao ge'... haha.. then sat and eat... THEN! something happened... then i cheerful le... i was like smiling for the whole day lor... din feel tired or anything... tat thing happened for around 10 mins ba.... then we left for lab le... then for 3 hours, i was not tired... yet i was having fun in the lab lor... for the 1st time sia... haha... then 2 hours break... slack in com lab with shu jie, met chanya... i think me and shu jie disturbed her la... then at 3.45, me and shu jie went 2 'smelly cafe' 2 eat baked pasta... then 4.25 sat outside LT26 tok till my lesson time la... THANKS SHU JIE! provided u r reading this... JAP was ok la... quite a fun lecture, thou most of the time me and the girl next 2 me dunno wat is going on... we juz kept copying notes la... then went 2 meet my parents... took them 2 merryborwn 2 eat... i din finish thou... so full from the pasta la... then jiu come home le... can't wait for 8pm on channel u... its a must watch... haha... JJ and funkies... haha...

2day packed my room... its so neat and clean le!!! yeah!!! my mum was happy oso... haha... threw away 5 bags of rubbish... 5! and i still haf a lot of things in my room... oso dunno y la... my things juz dun get lesser... tmr school... hopefully something good can happen... for example... can.................................... hehe... some peeps noe la... haha... i wanna go decorate my room nicely le... hehe... cannot wait 4 tmr...



friday was not a muzh help... din see clearly... sobz...

2day the siao bang come over 2 my house again... i cook baked spaghetti for them 2 eat... hmm... i got 2 say this... it was not nice... really... haiz... then watched the wang zi bian qing wah... hmm... laughed laughed... but most of the time... my mind was on somthing else... thou i looked normal... till the show finished then i ok le...
morning met them went NTUC @ hougang mall...bought the things needed... got my ear washed... then come home cook le lo... cooked, ate, washed... then we watch watch.. then tok a bit here and there... then they went home le...
then i slept a bit... cos dunno y so tired... then ate dinner, bath and here i am blogging



i still dunno how i feel... yes, i did say b4 tat i can understand how i feel le... but i dunno y juz kept think bout it... thinking about it makes me so sad... as i am typing this, i oso feel very confused!!! should i give up or not???!!! i really dunno wat 2 do... sometimes, i wonder y i think so much? wat is the point? i mean its useless wat... ppl might oso think tat i think 2 much le... and thinking so much oso no use right??? but i juz cannot help it!!! it juz makes me feel so frustrated!!! i find myself so useless!!! argh!!! these few days, dunno y... but whenever i am quitened down, i will juz think of it... sometimes, when i am at home, when there is no 1 around, i juz feel like crying for no reason!!!i feel tat i am so stupid!!! it may be cos i feel very lonely inside...it may oso be becos tat i feel very distant from y family lately... due 2 work and school...i spend more time on work and school than with my family... even when i am home, i juz...... argh!!! yes, i haf frens... i smile and laugh with frens... but whenever i am alone, i juz feel like crying!!! sometimes, i am juz a fake me when i am with frens... its juz a mask tat i put on... all this has nothing 2 do with 'fish'... but i juz hope tat i can dun think so much bout 'fish' le... i juz hope tat 1 day, i will truely be happy... juz happy... but i noe tat... juz feel tat... such a day will not come...

such a long day i had 2day... 5.45 am wake up... then reach home only at 8pm... all the while in school... 8am lecture starts... then end only at 7 pm... only with an hour break in between... so tired... my eyes r almost closing as i type this... and i am typing very very slowly... no energy le... hahas... haiz... i tired le la... wanna slp a while... then wake up 2 do something la... haiz... tmr still haf school... sian... really sian...


2day saw... erm... shall not say here la... kept me in good mood for the 12pm lecture onwards... hopefully i can see ...................... everyday... but 2 bad... tmr cannot... sian... tmr no 1 2 improve my mood le... haha...

2day went for 1st jap lesson... honestly... its quite boring la... got 2 noe this girl hu sat next 2 me... i juz noe tat she is from business school la... dunno her name thou... hehe... then after lecture saw shu jie... tok a while then she had 2 go for her class le... then on the way 2 find my parents at the coffee shop opposite the school, i saw some1... erm... some1 whom i wanna see 4 a while le... finally see tat some1 le... haha... then came home 2 watch superfunkies... NEXT MONDAY IS JJ!!! shanlyn... record 4 me!!! haha...
2day my timetable had another CDS... its called UIR... something abt internet de la... cos no 1 wanted it... so i got it lor... well... most of the class got it la... heard tat it was boring... haiz... so dun look 4ward to it... sian la...

i fianlly noe how i feel le... at least now i feel tat i am not so confused... i need not thik abt it so many times le... need not lose sleep le... but i dunno if i can face........ in school le... hiaz... thanks hui nee and shanlyn for listening 2 me... but i will still need u girls help in school hor... haha... and pls keep 2 yourselves... thanx... =p

ME GOT JAP FOR MY CDS!!! happy...
i no more work le... so sad... but i will be going back the next hols la... use my pay 2 get myself a new camera... got it yesterday... pink in colour... $389... when i came home, my dad asked me: ' y didi u spend so much money on such a small camera... u should get a bigger 1!'. lolx....
yesterday went ps where i got thingSSS... c&d..., vcd oso... hehe... then went centrepoinr 2 get camrea... can tell the sale uncle quite irritated with us la.. cos me and shanlyn keep going in and out of his shop... haha... but finally brought from him la... then we went tak 2 look for hui nee... eat with her... then bought something from her shop... a polo shirt for my brother... but 2 bad he dunno how 2 appreciate it la... sobz... so sad... then went home le... watched the 'wang zi bian qing wa' vcd... watch till 1.30am... i cry like dunno wat lor... so sad de story de lors... oso VER TOUCHING!!!... at certain parts la... but oso damm farnie... haha... okok... i noe some ppl will not be able 2 understand wat i am toking about... 4get it...
tmr school start le... but only need 2 go from 5-6... for the JAP lecture... the rest of the days is lab... so no need 2 go....


ME CANNOT WAIT FOR FRIDAY 2 COME!!! SOME PPL NOE Y LA HUR... BETTER NOT SAY IT HERE... muahahaha

歌曲: 知足
歌手: 五月天(Mayday)

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能知道足够

如果我爱上 你的笑容
要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我
会不会放手 其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你 而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在人海尽头
才发现 笑著哭最痛

那天你和我 那个山丘
那样的唱著 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那么足够
足够我天天都品尝著寂寞

(知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛)


i duuno y... but i love this song la... lalalalalalalalala....


this song oso la...

歌曲: 恋爱ing
歌手: 五月天(Mayday)

陪你熬夜聊天到爆肝也没关系
陪你逛街逛成扁平足也没关系
超感谢你让我重生整个o r z
让我重新认识 love (l o v e! l o v e!)
恋爱i n g happy i n g 心情就像是坐上一台喷射机
恋爱i n g 改变 i n g 改变了黄昏黎明
有你都心跳到不行

你是空气但是好闻胜过了空气
你是阳光但是却能照进半夜里
水能载舟也能煮粥喂饱了生命
你就是维他命l o v e

未来某年某月某日某时某分某秒
某人某地某种永远的心情
不会忘记此刻l o v e l o v e! l o v e!
黄昏黎明整个到恋爱i n g

me is not really a Mayday fan la... but thier these 2 songs... attracted me somehow... 1 is soothing? the other catchy...

discover what candy you are @ quiz me