2day missed a lot of IA... cos was busy with OB.. finally submitted the individual assignment... so damm happy la! after school went for ice-cream at creamery island!!! DAMM YUMMY LA!!!! then after tat went out with cyn, adi and kr to orchard to walk and eat eat and slack ard... yea.. then left for home at 11.30.. cos i juz wanan stay out and dun wan go home.. haha!! damm shiok! haven stay out in such a long long time liao.. haha!!!

after countless days of doing OB...


I'M FINALLY DONE!!!
yahoo!!!!!!!!!

its 4.30am in the morning -_- i need my sleep arh!!!!

okies, another song i'm addicted to -_-

Damaged by TLC
I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

[BRIDGE]
And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cause I don't want to lose you
If you really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

[CHORUS]
My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
Cause I don't want to lose you (Cos I don't wanna lose you)
If you really really really care (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you {nothing to you}

My heart's at a low (low)
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)
My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage)
I think you should know that (I think you should know that)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged)
I'm falling in love (I love you so)
There's one disadvantage (I love you so)
I think you should know that I've been damaged

And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cause I don't want to lose you
If you really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby)
I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

all thanks to hannah and kai rong tat i'm addicted 2 so much songs -_- but thanks! muahahaha!!!

some ppl can juz be so fake is impossible 2 imgaine how the hell did they change their attitude so damm fast lar!

i was damm hurt 2day... initially, i WAS ok de.. till the end? the ok-ness was gone and then? here i am fighting super hard 2 hold back my tears... y muz u be so fake? in front of me 1 face, in front of my fren 1 face like WTFH la!!! seriously, if the problem is me, THEN TELL ME! DUN GO ARD HURTING ME LIKE TAT CAN?!!!! pls... no 1 has any idea how hurt i was ok.. no 1 noes YET tat i'm a damm sensitive gal and tat i can sense changes going ard, and tat i'm oso damm sensitive tat i'll get hurt esaily la! u haf no idea ok.. what i haf been thru... i'm damm scared tat history will repeat itself u noe... i think it will... i really very scared, tat i haf bad dreams! i break down like like nobody's business. i cry and cry but i dun think got use la... i juz dun wanna lose 'u' ok... juz wanna.. be there...



abcdefghijklmnopqrstvwxyz like mad...

my mood swings are currently driving me mad sia! a while i'm happy, the next thing i noe? i'm sad, then happy then down then high -_- wth man! its totally irritating la! like.. ARG!!!! haiz... but i haf 2 conclude tat i'm happy! at least 4 now la ^_^ cos i must be happy! :D

i seriously feel tat i'm a big big baddie gal.. cos everytime go out is i wanan go home liao then every1 will disperse de.. i feel damm bad and guilty bout it la! i'm damm sad oso.. but i'm really sorry, cos i need really haf 2 go off de.. i'm really really extremely sorry.. oh man, i juz can't stop feeling so bad la!!! :( omg! SORRY PPL!!! esp going out to my SIM pals... i'm so sorry!

13 / 02 / 2009

life is juz 2 short 4 some... i heard some news from my mum bout 1 of my relatives.. shan't say much here in case the young ones are reading... i wanna help, as much as i can... i feel damm sad.. y do 1 sad thing come after another? its so true that 1 should really treasure life 2 the fullest...

last night i felt so guilty 4 not doing any v-day things, so i satyed up all the way till 3am to complete it.. its really only a very very simple thing la.. juz a card and i din write any personal messages lor -_- its the tot tat counts mahz :P but am so damm super tired la... woke up at 7am 2 wash clothes then go collect passport liao.. now juz reached home then going 2 school liao... damm sian la.. haiz... BUT! its pre-v-day celebrations!!! ^_^

went 2 see wt off juz now... well' i cried and a bit difficult 2 stop :( the following is our message 2 wt...

YO!

Time flies... 1st it was Alesia who has to leave us for Australia. Now, it’s your turn to go Australia as well le. Feeling so much of 依依不舍. So many words to say, so many things to do together, but now, we'll have to wait for your return from Australia before we can carry out any of that le. Time will never be enough for us to spend together, and to go CRAZY together. HAHA! Luckily, there is a great invention called the CAMERA, where we have all our memories captured.

Can remember how we started out? All we know is that, we started talking online, without knowing how each other look liked! And it was about a PIPC tutorial that was cancelled! The next thing we knew, we started going out as a big group! Big sister Aeng was always there to give us the greatest advice. Nee was there to clam us down or joke us up with our ever changing mood swings. And the crazy us even called ourselves the SIAO BANG! Finding seats in areas where we wanted to eat has been quite a big problem huh? 8 of us? It’s still always best to make a reservation. HAHA!!! Anyways, look at us now! We're all so different! I mean we did not change in our looks, but surely we've all grown up, become less tom-boy-ish, improved dress sense etc. But we can still call ourselves the crazy of the craziest people! [ In a good way =) ]

See that I-GUIDES picture taken in year 1? Miss Ping and Miss Shan were so not willing to put it in. Sure you'll agree that we haven't learn the skill of 自恋-ing in year 1, thus the 'cropped' face'! PLUS! OUR FACE IS SO OILY! Maybe in future the 3 of us can become the 代言人 for those 吸油纸! But no matter how ugly or oily we look, the picture just bring back all those I-Guides days.

In a blink of an eye (don't blink you eyes here as whatever i'm going to say next won't happen now), we 进入 our 2nd year. All that we know? Year 2 was a damm hectic year with a lot of projects, assignments and quizzes! BUT! We also had our fun of going to Concerts of 'STARS' like Tanya, 李圣杰 and of course, we 'pang seh' 陈伟联 cos we just don't feel like going. There also 潘嘉丽's concert, where Nee Nee won her 'twin's' autographed poster!! HAHA! We got closer as the days went by. Birthday celebrations were practically always on the top of our list. Always thinking what to get, and most of the time, you, Alesia, Ping and Shu jie will be getting vouchers, while Aeng and Nee will get a bag! ( Shan and Boon kind of go with anything? ) Haha! How little creativity we had then -_-

All too soon for us, we step into our final year in school. The KILLER year 3. SIP trained us to bond distance apart. And you were known as the 'Buffalo Wings Queen', all thanks to the cafe. SIP was a breeze, compared to MP. MP was the time where we missed our dear Ping Ping, as she was so dedicated to her cafe and we hardly had chances to see her. But she came back! And maybe she'll make waffles for you when you come back, since it’s her 拿手dish. Aeng and Nee were out to make us eat more healthily, and Shan and Boon pair up to make us taste their Japanese salad sauce. All thanks to MP, all of us suffered from the lack of sleep! Alesia, Shu Jie and you thought that you could finish your report on time and still have time to play. BUT, the 3 of you stayed up the whole night to chiong the report, and to print out everything. Everything was just so last minute. But still, our result was still not that bad.

Speaking of last minute-ness, I think we can now call ourselves the last minute gang. Agreeable? We seem to love to do everything so last minute! BUT BUT BUT! Even thou our things are done last minute, we can still produce very good results! Presents were always bought last minute, but at least we did get something. Outings were planned last minute, thou not everyone could attend, but everyone had fun! Project, reports, studies were also done last minute, but we all graduated! (Point to add here, Ping still can't believe that the nicest grad photo was actually taken in the toilet!) Even on the night of graduation, we had a last minute persistent decision by you to go drinking at airport T3! Thou we ended up having only coffee -_- SEE! Now we know that we can work last minute. HAHA!!!

We thought that after graduation, we might drift apart. But we hanged on well, and we're still well! We still had out gatherings, dinner etc. You and Ping started working in the same place. Therefore the 2 of you got closer. Boon and Shu jie continued their studies, which became their common topic! Remember the time when the 4 of us talked in the MRT station? We paid to talk. Why did we scan our cards 1st then talked? Haha! Boon and Shu Jie talked about school, Ping and you gossiped bout work. But it was because Ping and Boon were going home together, and Shu Jie and you were going home together. Speaking of which, Shu Jie is now in the same boat as Ping, having no partner to go home with them liao. So sad :(

Amongst us, you were the 'Photo Queen' Reason? Well, you know about Ping's Camera more than herself. When she bought it, you helped her explore everything! And it end up that you know how to use the camera better than her! Haha!!! But in any case, when any camera is in your hand, you'll start to 自恋, of yourself and anyone next to you. Remember you had more than 50 of your individual photo in someone's camera taken in the toilet of grad day?

Don't be angry or sad, as all these are your personalities that are special to all of us! It’s all these that make us miss you even MORE! There is so much more to write, to say. As the saying goes, 千言万语尽在不言中. But the time has come now for us to say Good-Bye to you. That is for now. 9 months will pass very fast and the next thing you know, you'll see us again! We'll miss you. You'll miss us too right? (Say yes even if your answer is a no, but we know your answer is confirmed a yes). Maybe you'll get yourself an Ang Moh BF huh? Haha! But bear in mind that our BF has to go thru 7 stages of interview by each of us, with Nee and Aeng being the last 2 most difficult stages. So find a better one kz?

Remember, 万里长城万里长, 我们的友谊比它长!!
Take care of yourself! Good Luck in everything that you do! We are missing you already!

HUGs and KISSes and LOADS and LOADS and LOADS of LOVE!!!!
Shu Jie, Han Ping, Shanlyn, Jia Wen, Hui Nee, Goey Aeng... (^_^)

P. S.
All the way from Australia, we present… ALESIA!!!
WOW! Time flies, isn’t it? Now that you’re coming already. I can’t wait to see you here!! It will be fun fun FUN!!!



i can't believe i typed all tat -_-

haiz.. this afternoon i was typing our farewell letter 2 wt... all of a sudden, i started 2 cry.. i haf no idea y, but i juz cried.. lucky i was alone at home... no 1 to see my cry... maybe i'm juz very close 2 wt tat i juz started 2 burst bahz... damm scared tmr when we go see her off i'll cry also :( i mean, sure cry de la...


千言万语尽在不言中... its sad 2 part...

the message will be shown here tmr at 10pm.. juz in case wt is reading my blog.. dun wan her 2 noe...

i'm gonna run far far far far far far far away... as much as i can... thou it seems impossible.. i dun like it now, and i DUN WANT TO like it oso... so pls juz let me get far way can? PE-LEASE!!!!!! mission has failed twice, hang on, i think more than twice, liao.. haiz haiz haiz... time 2 run lo... get as far as i can...


FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR

FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR

FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR

FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR

FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR FAR

away...

y izzit me? izzit lucky or unlucky? happy or not happy? any one else involve? is this 4 real? these questions are ringing in my head non-stop! haiz... i dunno wat 2 do....

i'm fighting real hard 2 hold back my tears... i dun wanna cry... frens don't make each other cry... if i cry 4 u gals, then i'm sorry 2 say tat the frenship is over.. i've told myself tat if i should cry 4 any1 of u, then u can already say goodbye 2 the frenship... u gals haf disappoint us, made us angry, made us sad.. the balance is no longer there... its the same as losing u peeps as frens... i'm fighting realy very very hard 2 hold back the tears now.. as if i'm not tired enough, as if i'm not stress enough... thanks not 4 adding on 2 the stress -_-

i dunno wat is this feeling... i'm totally freaked out by it, so much so tat i wanna cry... i haf no idea wat's wrong... i juz noe something's not right at all... okies, i'm crying liao... with no apperant reason... juz scared... dunno wat is it :(

something's not right... its 2 quiet...

:(