i cried.. yesa! finally after soooooooooooooooooooo long, i finally let it all out le... but! i still dun feel shuang.. i dunno wat i am going 2 do next le... disappointments, sadness, anger... haiz... i shall juz take advice and try 2 be happy.. and juz see how the flow goes bahz...

i was super sad 2day.. y? cos i found out abt things tat i dun wish 2 noe... but well, it was better tat i know.. at least i can noe wat he was thinking back then... and i think most prob i am gonna confront him about it... even if it means him hating me even more... i dunno how many ppl haf he told about me... but tis like.. ppl i dunno all haf bad impression of me juz bcos of his stupid crap... like.. WTF?! haiz.. tat is the 2nd person this week tat i haf been disappointed in... is backstabbing really such a fun thing? 3 months and 4 ppl haf back-stabbed me... its seriously more than i can take it lor.. i dunno how many more ppl out there r doing so as well la.. but i think tat that are more ppl hu r doing so lor.. and i dun think i am the the 1 and only person involved bahz... 2 those ppl hu wish 2 back-stab me out there, pls, i am your 1 and only aim.. pls do not drag other ppl into the picture can? i am the 1 tat u wanna put harm 2 so juz put it as me and aim me and me only... i do not wish 2 let others around me suffer...
i dun give a damm wat rumors r out there spreading abt me.. but i hope tat its juz about me.. if it has 2 do with any1 else, pls do not let tat person invlolved noe.. i dun wan any 1 2 suffer bcos of me.. thanks!

hmm.. these few days i am not really the happy me.. i think mood swings bahz.. i juz noe tat i feel not very happy, a bit sad sad... but i noe i felt betrayal.. i am really hurt by some person... wat she did really hurt me a bit la.. but its ok.. i will never trust tat person ever again... so gal, if u r reading this, i juz wanna let u noe tat u truly hurt me tat day... i juz wanna give u 1 suggestion: stop acting in front of ppl, esp everytime a new person appear, u show a new face.. its damm fake! haiz.. any other thing... i dun think i wanna mention here oso la.. haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz... tmr will be the last day i-guides will haf the SAR le.. tmr i oso better go look 4 celine 2 book the audi for our cert giving presentation... i can't believe.. everything is gonna be over so soon... i juz dun wan the things 2 end... its kind of sad la... the so many thing and the so many ppl tat i will haf 2 put down... put still, every1 and everything shall remain in my heart... ^_^

Open House is officially over... but i dun think its the end of i-guides yet.. cos we still haf quite a little things 2 to do.. muahahahaha!!! hmm.. thou there were a bit screw ups here and there, i feel that i can say that overall, it was a success bahz... hmm.. 1st 2 days was at eng welcome party with stanford... and a few other i-guides... hmm.. then last day we were the ZBL.. muahahaha!!! me and xin yu were walking around, face black black, catching ppl who were suppose 2 be working but not working de... ok.. let me thank 'a few' ppl...

(in alphabetical order, so slowly see bahz)
Agustinus, Bai Qiaoling, Calvin Aw Wei Ren, Chan Chun Kit, Chan Jesscan, Chan Ming Fong, Chee Jia Yi, Genevieve, Cheong Pei Yu Rayna, Cheung Wing Yan, Chew Wanyi Jenna, Chia Yun Cherng, Chong Yu Jiang, Chua Pei Yi Jasmine, Chua Xin Yu (Rain), Desiree Loo Yunting, Duke Yee Wai Ming, Emilia Bte Abdul Jaffar, Eunice Tong Wen Huay, Ferhan Siddiqi, Fiona Chia Lin En, Gabriel Eng Zheng Kai, Gerald Loo Yong Juan, Gina Sng Wei Xiang, Goh Sen Gui, Goh Wee Kiat, Ho Lin Yong, Huin Xin Yee, Jason Ang Wei Fu, Jerene Teo, Jow Lan Hui, Julia Goh Su Yun, Juliana Bte Abdul Jaffar, Khng Yu Tian, Koh Chye Hoon, Koh Wei Shan, Lai Hui Yee Winnie, Lau Teck Chee, Lau Xue Ling Shiring, Lea Woon Yah, Lee Lai Siang, Joseph, Lee Sin Nee, Lee Xin Hui Eunice, Leow Kian Hui Alan, Liew Kum Weng, Lim Chee How, Lim Jia Ying Christabel, Lim Jieyi Amanda, Lim Lishan Lecia, Lim Shan Ru, Lim Wan Jun, Lim Yang Ning, Ling Xinhui LiLian, Loh Jia Hui Sharon, Lye Pei Pei Angel, Mawar Salleh, Melissa Sutrisno, Michelle Phua Shin Yee, Nathaniel Tay Guan Joo, Neo WeiQin Pauline, Neo Xin Yi, Ng Bao Ming, Ng Choon Ying (Zelda), Ng Xiao Chun Kimberly, Nisha Bte Md Rafiq, Nor Liyana bte Noor Mohammad, Nur Atikah Binte Kamarudin, Nur Sadrina Bnte Alias, Nur-Iyzmawati Bte Mohamed Yusoff, Nursyazana Aziz, Nurul Huda Bte Juahil, Ong Hwee Zhen, Pang Hun Hui, Patrick Sim, Phua Jun Wen, Poh Teng Feng, Puah Yuan Jian, Quan ZiHui, Razanah, Rena Heng, Rubayn Goh, Ser Shu Jie, Shahirah Bibi, Sheow Shane, Sim Hui Xian, Sim Ming Zhu Elfie, Siow Wei Long, Siti Hafizah Bte Rahmat, Siti Khadijah Bte Idris, Soh Shini Serene, Stephaine Zheng Yun, Tan Bee Geok, Tan Boon Siew, Tan Chin Hui, Tan Hock Yong Jerome, Tan Mei Ting Agnes, Tay Pei Ru Gina, Tengku Maziah Bte Tengku Mahmood, Teo Yong Wee Aaron, Teong Wen Shan Iris, Tharik Nezar s/o Atdoar, Tian Pei Shi Melissa, Vanessa Lim, Vanessa Mok, Vivien Low Pei Shan, Wang Huiling Jessica, Wong Boon Han, Wong Jit Hwee Catherine, Woon Kin Wang Bryan, Yang Zhenhui, Yap Kian Ting, Yeo Sze Aik, Yong Qian Hwee, Zeng YiPing Jeslyn

and not 4getting these programme sub coms:
Ang Jin Ying, Choo Guan Kheng Lex, David Ng Tze Loong, Fabian Yin Bin Hao, Felicia Gan Puay Tin, Foo Han Lin, Geraldine Koh, Germaine Phua, Han YiXian, Hannah Adam, Ho Winna, Intan Baizurah Binte Bushra, Jacqueline Chiu, Jason Tan En Ming, Koh Munling Grace, Kwok Shi Ting, Lee Wei Jian Cannonz, Lim Hui Fen, Lim Zi Xin, Loh Qiu Xia, Loke Yuen Ee Juliana, Nur Aisha Khalid, Ong Hui Qin, Ow Xin Yun Evelynn, Pan Yisheng, Quek Jia Yin Karen, Sandy Tan Shan Di, Seah Li Ting, Sharon Ong Kai Chen, Siti Nurzahirah Zakiah Binte Zainol, Tan Chuan Hung Max, Tan Gek Teng Keryn, Tan Shi Yi Mindy, Tan Su Ling, Tan Yee Woon Joycelyn, Tan Yong Quan, Xiao Dahong, Yap Ka Cheong, Yeo Pei Xiu

and the log coms:
Ang Jing Yi Alvin, Chan Bing Yao Simon, Chiang Soo Ling, Chin Su Xian, Choo Ying Zhang Abel, Geraldine Gan, Goh Ying Pei, Hairil Amrin Josoh, Ho Li Min Melissa, Huang YingXiao, Joanne Chu Yu Ying, Lim ShenEn Phoebe, Lin Zhi Jun Jean, Nicholas Wu Jin Hai, Tham Hua Sheng, Yeong Chee Leong,

and our video-grapher:
Yeo Ying Jian

my dear PA:
Lifang
thanks 4 oways forcing me 2 eat.. u+meili+lay yian can garuntee tat i 100% sure got eat de... and oso thanks 4 the 'jin du nian chi an chuan pei pi pa gao'
p.s. how much i owe u arh? :P

my dearest PPR sub coms:
Chia Jialing, Desmond Chua, Goh Wanning Sheena

and the dearest of the dearest ever, my fellow Main Coms:
Paul, Keat, Alan, Xin Yu, Standford, Tim, Ngan Leng, Meili, Lay Yian, Eugene, Jashua and Vanessa


once again, a super duper big.. THANK YOU!
MUACKS!

2day was promotion day.. or rather, yesterday was... hmm, i think it went quite smooth bahz.. thou me and lay yian were kind of angry at 1st la.. but after tat we did cool down lor... hmm.. can say its quite an enjoyable day bahz.. so many thing happened.. with ice-cream, bowling and dinner... i think i can say tat most of the diablos are closer le? ya.. i seriously hope so bahz... hmm.. ya.. there will be pics... but when i free le then i will upload.. OH is drawing nearer and nearer liaoz.. i feel so nervous... thou i pray hard tat it would be ok lor... so many more things 4 me 2 do.. not tat other cannot help me.. but its seriously cannot help de.. cos 2 many things 2 complicated and only i noe how 2 do de.. the master sheet oso... only i haf it, so they can't help me... haiz.. so sian... 2night sure no need 2 sleep le la!!!


3 days 2 OH 2007
8DAYS 2 MY MEDICAL CHECK UP

am so darn tired... haiz.. for the past 2 days it has been raining... and i haf been walking home in the rain... it feels os damm good 2 walk homei n the rain.. y? i oso dunno.. but i think cos my mood not really tat good? everyday i haf 2 put up a brave front... but look at wat happened 2day... i had no choice, but i broke down... i really dunno how much longer can i take things... if it wasn't for the gals, i dun think i will be in anymore.. yesterday de rain was damm horrible.. so damm horrible till so many of us cannot go home la... hmmm i dunno wat i wan 2 say le.. but i hope open house will come and get over soon.. i feel so damm damm busy till i feel so damm damm

tired...idunnohowmanymoretimesiwillbreakdownthestressiscomingnotjuzfrom1directionbut
manydirectionsitsjuzsodammdammtiringcanidunnowatfurtherthingsiwannasaybutijuzhopetat
icanbehappier

i am so so so so so so tired... i dunno y but i like got a lot of things 2 do lor... a bit the very the texing on me sia.. i feel so damm tired can... but heng so far i am still doing well... at least tat is how my term test results r showing la.. cos normally i fail all my term test de.. but so far i haf been doing well... so i better study even harder! sat is prmo day.. but there are so many different grps organising so many outings till i a bit luan le la...

well.. i juz realised tat my right hand de 1 finer got a deep deep cut 2day... and by the time i realised, my finger actually was slightly purple in colour le -_-''' i oso dunno y i din feel the pain when it actually had such a deep cut... hmm.. tmr school again.. but so damm many things 2 do.. gotta return trolleys, pack the pp room, collect reciept from mensa 2... next sat is promotion day... after tat go out with diablos 2 haf dinner or something la... muahahaha!! i am going mad le!!! and hu noes y? even me myself oso dunno la.. sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

well.. 2day is i-guides de packing day... well.. kind of went rather smothly 2 wat i expect la... and the ppl some could seen smiling while packing... hmm.. and i oso keep counting wrong and then miss count la.. so haf 2 hai some peeps recount and count again :P feel so damm bad la... hmm.. then after packing went SAR 2 clean up with wat eva tat was left over lor.. in other words known as 'kio sai' la... but it was mainly the log hu were doing it... friday went 2 school 2 stay overnight... celebreated desmond de birthday.. i was evil enough 2 let him haf 2 un wrap at least 7 magazines b4 i toook out the main 1 which had his present in it la.. haha!!! poor him la... bought a dog tag and choco with another cake oso... can see he was shock la... attempted 2 sleep thereafter but failing 2... and i am so damm amazed tat gek ting actually managed 2 force me 2 fall asleep lehz! omg la.. but i woke up trembling...cos sleeping bag sheena took, both jackets gek ting took... but ah wells... i was not planning 2 sleep anyways... but i starting 2 feel tired now le...
wanna thanks those ppl hu made our packing day a success... esp. those guys hu were os hardworking in moving the bags la.. thanks loads!!! cyz!!!

school had officially started for 2 days le.. and so far so good.. i did quie ok for my term test.. its either average, or above average.. which i can say i quite happy la... cos i hardly pass my term tests de.. and if i pass hor.. its like.. miracle?

ok.. tmr is gonna be a fun day... with wat was written on msn.. i laugh till i dunno how 2 type le... siao lo... well i guess hu eva is involved will never read this so yeah.. i think its safe 2 say tat pls prepare youself a new set of clothes plus many many medicines!!!!

sometimes, i juz cannot take too many things in a day like kena scolded many times in a day.. but sometimes, i think i deserve it la... well... its all an experience 2 learn from, 2 grow from it and to change for the better... wow? since when did i become so like tat de arhz? hmm, i think its normal? muahahaha!!! ok.. i am back 2 myself i guess? 2day is practically the whole day spent at the SAR... hmm... and a bit of tok tok with VC la... another thing oso is.. ya scoldings... but i am ok le... after toking and crying a bit bit jiu ok liaoz... anything else.. i think i will noe hu is the next person i need 2 approach le.. cos i a bit bit scared things will get out of my hand la... hmm.. tmr haf 2 go look for terence again... well.. i am prepared 2 face the fire le... sian la... i dunno how 2 do so many things le la!!!

i am going mad... some1 save me bahz!!!


tralalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalala.... my lalalala only some ppl will noe wat i toking about lo... muahahahahahehehe

grrrrrrrrrrr!!! this post i typed a lot de lor!!! then when i publish, everything was gone and i haf 2 retype! how great! nvm...

anyway... ah boon is so clever.. she saw my msn nick and she knew tat it was a need 2 come read my bloggie liaoz.. haha!! yep.. juz 2 inform my gang of gals, 1st few days of school if u see me quiet quiet arhz.. juz let me be kz... cos i juz not in the correct mood la.. if u see me smiling and going siao siao.. juz leave it oso.. maybe i am juz trying 2 run away from some things la... ya... wt, shan and boon noes about it le.. lisi, small snow, big snow and nee nee i iwll tell u all when i see u if i remember.. muahahahahehehehehe

okies... school is strating tmr... and i haf some sai 2 kio... sian la... but its ok... at least there are other things 4 me 2 look 4ward 2 this time round :P ting ting will noe wat i am toking about.. pls do no leave a message in the tag hor ting ting... later every1 noe i oso can die!!! juz tell me personally can le.. hehe (^_^)v

O.o!!! its the new year le!!! yeahness? hehe.. of cuz muz la... haha!!!
only thing i haf 2 say is..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

ok.. tat shall be my 1st post for 2007 :P

1 and only resolution:
wanna study harder and get better grades!!!