i have been thinking these past few nights.. more than 30 nights... can a person like 2 ppl at one go? i mean, for example, can u like guy A and guy B at the same time? if u like guy A only, then how do u explain the weird feeling u haf when u r with guy B? if u like guy B, the how do you explain the weird feeling u haf when u r with guy A? i haf been thinking bout the past, i dunno y but i juz kept recalling things from the past.. then i asked myself this question: did i really liked tat some1? or was he only a substitue? i really dunno, and i'm feeling so confused tat i start 2 haf weird dreams! after discussing with shan, then i found an answer.. i will only end these confusion by getting answer from the ppl involved... but will i ever do tat? i dun think i will.. i mean, i'm like not toking 2 them much these days le, how the hell am i suppose 2 start a topic with them? and if i successfully start a topic, how the hell am i supposed 2 ask them the questions? and i'm oso afraid of their answers! i noe, these are stupid things, but they haf made me lose sleep and lost much tears... and come 2 think of it, these ppl r the main ppl who spoil my b-day every year! the tend 2 spoil my mood on my day itself! haiz... its all called fate...

anyways, i had a dream... the dream was odd... i was out with 3 other gals on board a curise via invitation... then we were invited 2 this ball on board the cruise by a rich gal.. all the 4 of us were reluctant 2 go for theb all, but at the same time, some1 told us 2 attend the ball cos there were some other ppl waiting for us and were expacting us.. and there were 4 guys there, meant for each of the gal... the gals apperantly kind of ignored the guys, thou we noe they were meant for each of us in our heart la.. i even saw the guy 4 me in my dream.. but the strange thing is, once i woke up, i haf no recollection of how the guy looks like, i haf no idea who were the 4 gals with me! one of them had a 'ting' in the name de.. but i'm not sure if its wei ting thou.. haha! the other 2 gals? i dun even noe their name nor how they looked like! neither can i remember the 4 guys, thou the guy meant 4 me appeard right in front of me in my dream! is this wat the called 'the dream guy'? coem 2 think of it now, did the dream happen on a cruise? or was it a very grand place? i really can't remember! i have not been having dreams for a very long time now.. but recently, i keep having odd dreams! what do they mean? i never noe...


job is fun. i haf been told 2 extend which i rejected cos of some reason. new ppl r gonna come in soon, i better adapt again... got my 1st pay, which is damm little -_-