islept very little the past few days.. know y? cos i keep having nightmares abt my accident... during day time, i can tremble cos i will haf visions abt my accident as well... i can't imagine if i were any slower, i would haf my thumb gone.. omg! argh.. some1 help me man! how 2 sleep? i wun haf the energy 2 work andstudy lor.. and i dunno y my thumb is still bleeding slightly... horrible.. i swear tat the thumb is a very damm important part of out hand lor.. dun believe? go try.. dun use your thumb 4 everything, dun wet your thumb also.. u will find how horrible it is.. wearing clothes got prob, bath got problem lor.. cannot carry things, cannot do thins oso lor.. i keep thinking, wat can i do in the cafe.. only thing i can do how? makedrinks using one hand, serve using 1 hand, do cashier job using one hand, basically, do everything using 1 hand.. but its so damm unstable la -_-

my left should to arm is now in pain oso la.. its swollen!!! cos of the jab i think.. the medicine could not spread and thus is all gathered there... well, i haf no idea wat 2 do next but 2 wait 4 it 2 recover bahz...

2day went out shopping with shan.. i tell u its horrible lor.. cos hor.. almost everything i tried on has button!!! and without the thumb, its damm difficult 2 button and unbutton la! omg! i the end, when i tried 2 use my thumb, it bled -_- by the time i reach home, it was still bleeding.. i wonder y.. but i managed 2 buy bottoms andtp for the new year! yeah!!

both teachers smsed me 2day, asking bout my conditions and stuffs... well, sorry 2 caused them 2 worry la.. but i dun think they will be reading this.. so yea... and i got a packet of biscuit from irene.. and its known as.. 'BABY BISCUIT!' and its only 4 me la -_- cos i was crying due 2 the pain in my hand... so, the normal biscuit 4 me was known as baby biscuit -_- so funny la...

fri a lot ppl came 2 the cafe 2 ask bout my conditions.. touched touched.. feel so vunerable.. cos every1 was asking me 2 be careful, they dun ask me 2 do anything etc... felt kind of bad but there was nothing i could do la... head tat ppl say i was cool and brave.. like remained so clam for 2 mins b4 i cried due 2 pain... but i think cos got teachers and guys down there so i din wanna cry la.. dun like 2 cry in front of guys lehz... but in the end bo bian.. 2 pain! haha!!!

but 2 all:
i'm now much better le.. juz slight bleeding cos my wound 2 big le.. (according 2 miss choo) yep.. its still slightly painful and i still cannot exert stress on it.. no heavy stuffs for now, hopefully will fully heal in 1 week, or latest, 1 month time.. oh ya, and 2 any1, if possible, tell me remedy 2 4get abt this horrible incident so tat i can sleep properly la... thanks!