i am not a strong gal as u think i am.. i do haf many hidden secrets.. i do haf the confidence u think i haf.. do u noe y i sleep so late at night? cos i can cry out softly 2 myself without any1 of u noeing it! do u noe tat i dun even haf the courage 2 go anywhere alone? and when i say anywhere is really anywhere.. i dun even dare 2 walk in tp alone la... sometimes i wish 2 seek consuelling from u.. but i cannot! cos i cannot open up 2 u 2 tell u my stuffs.. i oways swallow back lor.. yes, i admit tat i am in wrong, i did not do anything right... but still, sometimes, maybe, juz sometimes, spare a tot 4 me can? please.. i am afterall not such a strong person... i cried till my hands were numb and pain... my lips were numb they turned purple.. my face was numb.. yet all i could do was juz shout out 2 mummy tat i am fine, i am ok and i am juz resting... do u noe how scared i was tat i might juz pass out? but i am ok le.. so no worries right? haha... and yes, i am sorry 4 wat i haf done... i am very very sorry 4 wat i haf done..
but perheaps juz 2 add on, IG is a place where i destress... after a hard day's work, after being scolded by teachers, tat is the place where i can find 1st hand encouragement! it was oso there tat i found ppl who were willing 2 listen 2 me, who will not laugh when they see me cry, who motivates me and push me on! its not tat u all r not willing 2 listen 2 me i noe, but, i juz feel more comfortable with my frens... i'm very sorry but tat is how i feel... u noe sometimes i juz swallow back my anger and sadness, but its at IG where i can let things out! its a place where i feel i am at myself best? i dunno... i feel complicated... but i really wan u 2 noe how i feel... i hope u wun get angry by this, but i juz wanna let u noe how i feel only...

sorry...
very sorry...