now the time has passed 12 midnight... i am officially declared 19... sad... haha!!! no la, kidding nia.. but now being no longer my most important day of the year, i think i can feel sad le hor? cos something juz happened, and it really made my mood went down-hill at a super fast rate... and 2 think tat had 2 hold back my sadness till after 19th aug cos i dun wan myself 2 feel any sad on this very important day! yepz.. anyway, no worries... cos i am feeling much better le, noeing tat so much frens are behind my back and supporting me, and oso giving me all sorts of reason 2 cheer me up... so, yepz, i am much happier now again la.. haha!!!

i keep telling myself, its time2 wake up... i dun think i wanna carry on dreaming on things tat can never ever be fulfilled... i guess it will only cause me misery.. i dun even haf the guts 2 dream any longer...wait till the time is right... when will i ever noe when is the right time???!!!! feelings? haiz... can say 4get it le la.. btw, u really got me freaked out tat i dun even haf words 2 say when i called some1 else later... everything juz went out of me... it was really freaky.... mood was deeply affected.. looks like it will take me another dunno how many months 2 overcome bahz :)