haiz... i am feeling very bad now la... i feel as if i am the cause of some1 else misery... haiz.. but at the same time, i can't help but 2 feel happy tat something has happened 2day... haiz.. should i feel happy or sad? cos if i feel happy, i can make 2 other ppl happy as well... if i am sad, i can cause 3 other ppl or more 2 be sad lor... hmm... dunno la... shall keep it everything 2 myself la.. haiz... anyway, my uncle de maid is over 2 stay at my house... afternoon met wei ting 2 reurn her notes... feel so pai seh la.. owe her so long le... came home 2 find my cousin and her babay at my house... haha.. the baby was crying cos she wanna go home le.. then i tok 2 her she got smile a bit la... haha!!! hmm... i think next next week i gonna spend some time at my aunt's and cousin de house... 1 thing is cos i wanna get away from my msn... somehow whenever i sit in front of msn i feel kind of sad la... haiz... shall see how la.. cos i got like so many projects 2 rush... next week on the 8th going out 4 dinner hopefully, then on the 9th got graduation ceremony... after tat i think should be going out la... cos got ppl wanna buy clothes and promised him 2 pei him le... hopefully wun be 2 late or my mum will kill me again... haha!!! anyway shall see how la.. cos maybe i wun haf the mood? dunno la... i really dunno a lot of things lor.. i can't even noe my own feelings lor... -_-''' i think i am going ma le... haha!!! a little while haiz-ing away, the next moment haha-ing away... siao siao lo... haiz.. i better make some phone calls 2 clear something or i will be dead b4 u noe it...