彬彬的心声

Saturday, May 27, 2006

i juz realised tat i am quite stupid 2day.. my stupid actions... -_-''' yep.. i did receive many advices... budden... all of u give me different sort of advices!!! which 1 should i take? wat if i regret? i mean... its so rare 2 haf such strong bond? and then 2 lose it juz like tat? i dun wanna regret later in life... shit la! i am trembling so hard as i am typing... there is juz 2 many things in my heart le... till i really very very tired and i really feel like juz letting everything out but i juz can't cry out in my house right? dun wan my family members 2 worry... so many occassions i wanna cry but kept holding back le... i really dun think i can take any longer... sooner or later i will go all mad and i worry tat i might juz let it out of any1... is like... term test coming, i stressed, tired, sad and so many more? then term break oso= no term break.. 3days of FC lab, then community service, then damm a lot of projects 2 finish during the 2nd week of term break la... i dun think i will haf any break la... i really dun wanna 2 be so sad and quiet anymore... i wanna be back 2 my bubbly self... budden its juz seem so hard.. i wanna let everything out!!! but when will i can? i mean.. the current me has caused many of my frens 2 worry 4 me le... and its kind of sad... i mean.. i dun mean for them all 2 worry... i try 2 be bubbly in front of them but they haf learnt 2 see thru me... i fight really hard 2 hold back my tears... i feel tat i am really so stupid!!! so damm f***ing stupid! sorry... but pls allow tat... i feel scared, afraid and everything... and i juz dunno y i feel tat way... i am scared of wat will happen should there come a day when i cannot hold on any longer... wat will happen 2 me? i mean.. i am so stupid and foolish.. wat will happen? i really dun wan any1 2 worry le... but i juz can't let out in front of them mahz.. i mean they will get more worried! haiz... i sound so depressed? but sorry.. i really can't help it... i am typing all this with me fighting 2 hold back my tears and i am trembling... 2 my frens out there.. i will need u all de help these days lo... if i do cry pls dun scold me or any1 else kz? u all should noe wat i mean bahz... juz give me a hug and i iwll feel better de... thanks!!!

in case some ppl dunno... things r changing le.. they r not how as they use 2 be liaoz... i am really hurt and everything... i mean.. i am oso hurt if u din notice... i am really hurt... really very very hurt... really very very hurt... i am crying in my heart thou i dun show it in front of u... (T_T)


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