haiz... i dunno wat is wrong with me these few days... got kind of high... then down again... like now... juz 20 mins ago i was like haha-ing away in msn... but now... i like juz feel down again.. maybe is because of wat i was talking 2 wei ting about bahz... ya.. i think tat should be the case... i do not know how long i will have 2 take 2 get over tat thing... i really damm stupid of me la... i noe its not worth it anymore... but its my 1st time dropping tears for some1 lehz... besides my family members la... guess i will have 2 take some time? but so far, i haf not been letting it affect our frenship... everything still quite ok la... i think... hmm.. so far still ok la... as least not as bad as... well... shall not mention it again... some1 else have hurt me b4.. thou is not as painful and i did not cry cos of the other person... and i think the other person de thingy is over.. now i juz haf 2 get out of this 1 and everything will be fine le!!! yeah!!! haha... see... as i type, i feel more happier liaoz... i seem 2 be able 2 cheer myself up.... but i bet 10 mins later arh, i will be down again... haiz... see la... i haiz liao lor... i muz be mad sia... tut tut.. cannot! i muz get out of it!!!


another thing on my mind... got ppl ask me join main com of ASc and I-Guides... but really need a lot of commitment lehz... i think most prob i join i-guides de nia la.. i dun think my studies will permit me 2 join ASc de... hmm.. okies... i shall see how things go... most prob i will join I-Guides de main com bahz... :)