ah... my net is like finally working liaoz.. like finally... but anyways...
these few days kind of went by damm slowly 4 me... and i dunno wat is wrong with me... i was juz moody, feeling so damm down and sad la... its like.. i have been like (T_T) for like 4 days in a row liaoz? am i kind of stupid? i feel as if i am a fool... i feel so damm stupid la... i think i am being made use of without noeing it again... i noe tat i will be hurt, but y did i agree 2 help in the 1st place? haiz.. this is the disadvantage of having a too soft heart le lor... i kept having the same dream.. i wonder wat it means... in those dreams, it will have the 3 of us there 1st... and the dreams always ended with me and tat person... its like.. at night i sleep oso this dream, even during day time when i nap will oso have the same dream lor... i noe... i seem 2 be thinking too much... but honestly, the hurt tat i am going thru now, its the 1st tat i am going thru... when the somewat same thingy happened the last time, i din cry.. i dunno y but this time its juz so damm difficult 4 me la... having cried for 4 days, having tok on the phone with so many ppl so many times... its juz tat everytime i mention tat person, it juz kind of start me off crying... and when i start, its like at least an hour before i will stop lor... i will need loads of help this time round... ppl reading this, your help me greatly appreciated... pls cheer me up kz... i will be sad and stuff... many have said tat i have gone so much quieter... hmm... i think i did notice it a bit bahz... i feel like telling everything 2 tat person i was close 2 last time... but i dunno y i juz dun haf the courage 2 tell him... should i call??? hmm... but still.. haiz... see how the future goes bahz... (T_T)