2day the siao bang come over 2 my house again... i cook baked spaghetti for them 2 eat... hmm... i got 2 say this... it was not nice... really... haiz... then watched the wang zi bian qing wah... hmm... laughed laughed... but most of the time... my mind was on somthing else... thou i looked normal... till the show finished then i ok le...
morning met them went NTUC @ hougang mall...bought the things needed... got my ear washed... then come home cook le lo... cooked, ate, washed... then we watch watch.. then tok a bit here and there... then they went home le...
then i slept a bit... cos dunno y so tired... then ate dinner, bath and here i am blogging



i still dunno how i feel... yes, i did say b4 tat i can understand how i feel le... but i dunno y juz kept think bout it... thinking about it makes me so sad... as i am typing this, i oso feel very confused!!! should i give up or not???!!! i really dunno wat 2 do... sometimes, i wonder y i think so much? wat is the point? i mean its useless wat... ppl might oso think tat i think 2 much le... and thinking so much oso no use right??? but i juz cannot help it!!! it juz makes me feel so frustrated!!! i find myself so useless!!! argh!!! these few days, dunno y... but whenever i am quitened down, i will juz think of it... sometimes, when i am at home, when there is no 1 around, i juz feel like crying for no reason!!!i feel tat i am so stupid!!! it may be cos i feel very lonely inside...it may oso be becos tat i feel very distant from y family lately... due 2 work and school...i spend more time on work and school than with my family... even when i am home, i juz...... argh!!! yes, i haf frens... i smile and laugh with frens... but whenever i am alone, i juz feel like crying!!! sometimes, i am juz a fake me when i am with frens... its juz a mask tat i put on... all this has nothing 2 do with 'fish'... but i juz hope tat i can dun think so much bout 'fish' le... i juz hope tat 1 day, i will truely be happy... juz happy... but i noe tat... juz feel tat... such a day will not come...